just wanted to post this.. and make good what i told zhen today

from beloved:

"and so they were: paul d garner, paul f garner, paul a garner, halle suggs and sixo, the wild man. all in their twenties, minus women, f***ing cows, dreaming of rape, thrashing on pallets, rubbing their thighs and waiting for the new girl..."

well.. these are obviously damn extreme circumstances.. when men.. sadly.. are no more men.. because of how they have been treated from the moment they were born.. brought up thinking they were less than animals.. which is how the whites defined them.. but they allowed themselves to be defined that way.. which brings me back to today's lit lesson.. which makes my brain wanna melt away into a pile of crap cos it was in a complete whirl. so i shall stop on this topic. i really did like beloved when i first read it.. but after all this analysis we've done on it.. im sick of the book. honestly.. i think sometimes we read so much into things.. and it just makes the book lose it's original beauty.. which is ironic considering that im a lit student.. but.. o well.

btw. the passage above is pretty normal in the context of this book.. and just about most lit material i would think. im so accustomed to saying sex and just about anything after pw and reading all these books. no situation can surprise me anymore.