i am sitting here now.. coz i dont wanna do anything. my mind is a complete blank and my willpower to do anything right now. today. is a complete zero. i am trying not to care about anything and that is making everything even so much more real. so for just this period i shall try not to give a shit about anything. im so tired. shall not talk about this anymore.

i cannot believe 2 years of jc have just flown by.. mel and i were talking about it today during lessons.. o man.. im repeating myself again.. but im soooooooooooooooo thankful for my class.. and i think we got the best teachers in the world.. gosh.. i could go on and on about this.. but.. boohooooooo... we were having chem lab today and i think it's prob the most enjoyable lab lesson that i've had ever.. to just talk and joke and do everything so freely.. to actually have fun mixing chemicals and all.. to have the guys all gaying around as usual.. shit. i cant believe friday is the last day of our uniformed education. forever. can u believe it? i cant believe my days of going to school. moaning and groaning or being a complete fool. and being a part of the most amazing class on earth is going to come to an end. i was looking at danielle's blog.. and i saw the pic of us at pizza hut at the start of last year.. haha o man. everyone has changed. so. damn. much. it's like.. this life has come to an end..and we're all gonna embark on this very scary new life.. it's crazy. 2 years. no.. i dont feel like a victorian. and i prob wont ever. anyway i think vs guys will only think that they are the 'true victorians'. shall not go on anymore.. heh. coz it's well.. a sensitive issue. and i do feel extremely strongly bout my mg too. 10 freaking years. but.. im really really glad i came to vj.. and all these great great great people who i've crossed paths with over the last 2 years.. wow. just thank you man. for all the good and bad shit that has happened.. thank you.. all the idiots whom i have met.. and to all the rest i just totally.. dig u guys man. it's been an awesome ride. friday. is going to be a very sad day. i never thought it would come.

actually.. i take back what i said.. about idiots whom i've met. coz i've met none. really. i think everyone really is special in their own way.. and for those whom i didnt necessarily agree with.. it's just a personal preference kinda thing. difference of character. i almost did something that day.. which might have relieved me of well.. some stuff. but i didnt. dont know why.

i'll write more on this next time.. i dont wanna forget.. what this 2 years.. has done. but.. just not in the happy mood which i need to be in.. to celebrate the wonderful friendships made.

from this...



to this...


even norman seems to have aged...

yea... class table.. :)