i always thought purgatory meant like immense suffering or something along those lines.

well it does.
but i didnt know it meant too in catholic beliefs that it is a place where souls go to to suffer for their wrong-doings in life after deathand thus in a way atone for them. and this suffering would then.. well.. kinda like make them 'pure' now after which they can go to heaven.

i dont know whether that's a little known fact or if i am just ignorant. i think it's the latter.
i dont have confidence in my grasp of the english language anymore. not because of one word, but because of everything.

yea. i am blogging coz i wanna blog but i have so much to say which cannot be said... and yet nothing at all.

i think if u looked under the words 'selfish', 'apologetic' and 'insecure' in the dictionary, u would find my picture there. (yea it's a freaking dictionary but i love to imagine) in the first, a flashing picture of myself, the second, a permanent picture, and the third, a huge pop-up picture that would probably kill u coz it's so huge it will just knock u out of your socks and into the depths of the earth. the pop-up would be seen from the moon. what the hell, it may even encompass the whole universe and be sucked into black holes but because of its enormity both ends would meet in the black hole. i could think of a lot more words but i rather not say.

sorry guys. girls. guys and girls.
................................girls. definitely girls.

it doesnt matter what happens.. or what is gonna happen.. just gotta keep my eyes on the Lord.. keep your eyes on the Lord man.. dont let them dart around.. BAM! one second and that's all it takes to screw u. not literally please. this is a clean blog.

hey check out something man! my recent posts are like.. aug 2...4...6... hurray! something something 2, 4, 6! who do we appreciate! well.. or something like that. is it a cheerleading song. if it is then... GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO whoever!!!!!!!!!!!!!! scream. clap. shout. ogle at cheerleaders (im talking about guys.... not me. please.) what a stupid notice. i think 'cheerleading' in singapore sucks. this would probably offend quite a few people. but i dont give a shit. (ok if u're a friend of mine from vj. pause and read this first. i have nothing against my great classmates who joined phoenix last year! i think u guys did an amazing amazing job and i know u guys really did it for the house and for all the fun of it. deifnitely there are people out there.. but well im not talking about vj-wise. u guys are terrific sincerely.. bing.. danielle.. sarah.. mel.. etc.. MEL!!! o man! i cant believe u did it!! it's a victory for you!! haha. well ok back to the topic..) it doesnt matter if u train for hours or do some performance at orchard. or whatever shit. a lot of people who get into this i feel just do it so o wow. i am now popular, a freaking cheerleader, and i get to wear short skirts and do splits and show off whatever i get the attention of everyone.. esp.. o my.. do i dare say this out loud.. (of course u dont that's why im doing it for u) the... (take a deep deep breath).. GUYSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. hurray!!! it's all just another extension of how so many young singaporeans take to the american way of life blindly. they have adopted the 'cheerleading' culture so to speak.. or well trying to. it doesnt matter what anyone says. coz i know im right! im right! this is my blog! im always right! however i think things are different in america. well yea people will definitely want to get into cheerleading for the 'wrong reasons' always. actually u cant really call them wrong reasons coz they are the reasons for cheerleading.. but wow their routines are amazing. and it really isnt easy there. cheerleading a sport? i dont know whether u could go that far as to call it that.. maybe a skill. but still.. it doesnt belong to the world of the general public i feel.. but just to that specific group. i have no idea why im saying all this so im going to stop. this has to be the 5th time i've come back to edit this entry. it's the last too.