Tuesday, August 09, 2005

i was talking about jon stewart yesterday. shall continue about it here coz i realised something. u know how u always read about women being drawn to married men. well, i think i realise what the underlying reason for that is. not that i am one of them of course. please. i couldnt give a shit/am still a kid/am not a slut. but anyway jon stewart is married and i realise the first thing that pops to my mind when i know that a certain male celeb is married is - wow. he must be different from the rest who just go around from club to club drinking doing this and that.. very pathetic colin farrell like. this guy is actually willing to settle down with a woman despite all the playmates that stardom could bring him. so instantly he sort of goes up in your estimation as compared to other blond blue-eyed buff slabs of meat.. or f4 like pieces of.. i shall not say. let's be nice. so i guess this stability.. is a draw? i think the aura that married guys give off may be different especially for women looking for something more serious. i dunno. but anyway it's an absolute SIN to get involved with a married guy it doesnt matter what the reason is! i wish they showed jon stewart's daily show here.. but i guess it's too much of an american show and well the humour and all... it's too much for most singaporeans to take maybe. but it's really hilarious what i've seen of it. i found this pic, a 'promo' for his show

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nice huh.. i promise this is as R(A) as my blog will get.. in fact this is so damn PG man.. just that people have a problem with everything. it's just for laughs man

i have a feeling this is gonna be a long entry...
ok like i said yesterday.. i wanna talk about guys.. no im gonna waste my time blogging about a subject which i have absolutely zero interest in now and sometimes just makes me quite annoyed. i wanna talk about some aspect.. which is quite disturbing.. i was watching gilmore girls that day on sunday and the storyline is something like that (this is gonna be really long i think.. but it's a pretty good illustration) --- rory used to be the ex-gf of this guy dean but they broke up and while she moved on to yale he got married... but they're still really young and all and i think even though it's over there's still some nostalgic affection which has always been present there. so anyway dean encounters some problems in his marriage and one night comes to tell rory that it's all over between he and his wife. no they're not divorced.. but there're just no way to salvage it - it's over. and suddenly in a moment of passion they end up having sex. on rory's bed. and this is damn unexpected coz rory is this good girl with straight As and i dont think she could hurt a fly. no not coz she's really thin but coz she's got a good heart. so after everything's done rory's mum finds out and is shocked coz dean is still a married man it doesnt matter what he says, but yet rory very protectively says that he loves her and she doesnt regret it and yet it's obvious that somewhere in there.. she knows it wasnt really right. anyway after that she arranges to meet dean somewhere to clarify it.. but then somehow they just end up in the sack again. by this time rory has chosen not to heed her mum's advice under the disillusionment that dean really does love her. so one day she walks by the butcher's and sees this girl inside asking desperately for a particular meat and practically begging the guy for it coz he seems to be out of it all coz her husband really likes it and she needs to save her marriage. and guess who the girl is? that's right.. it was jennifer aniston!

nah it was actually dean's wife. and ting!!! a lightbulb goes off in rory's head - omg.. my mum was right.. they are still married.. and here she is trying to salvage their marriage whereas her husband had sex with me.. so anyway rory goes off to europe with her grandma prob to take a breather from things and avoids contact with dean. so they show a scene at dean's house where his wife has dressed up.. looks really good and is cutting the meat for her husband who initially looks quite stand-offish but eventually it's obvious he still has feelings for her and they're all smiles. so does dean realise cheating on his wife was wrong.. no! he still tries to call rory's handphone after that but she rejects his calls. she mails her mum a letter to pass to dean which she does. one day while her mum is out in town, they pass dean's house where he and his wife are having a huge quarrel and it can be heard from the streets and she's throwing his stuff out of the window.. ting ting ting!!!! she found rory's letter. dean is a dope really. so rory comes back.. and finds out and is really shaken up. what she wrote in the letter was to tell dean it was really special but she realises he is married and hopes that he can go and try to salvage his marriage. so one day rory and her mum are walking down the street and suddenly they walk into dean's wife and her mum. and the mum dumps a whole load of shit on rory. quite saddening. rory goes to find dean at his house coz he's moved back with his parents and guess what responsible dean does. he shuns her and told her he never should have thrown his marriage away for a girl who dumped him a few years ago and he goes in and slams the door in her face in rory's mid-sentence.

i can imagine a guy reading this going.. well yea that's how things work man..
but a girl reading this... TOTAL INJUSTICE!!! DEAN IS SUCH A FREAKING JERK!!!!! he cheats on his wife and tells this girl he loves her. and has sex with her twice after which when his wife finds out he immediately turns his back on the girl and it becomes her fault. freaking coward. he gets what he wants and then when things dont go his way he has to find someone to blame. i think guys overuse the word love a lot. look at this idiot here. i dont think he could even phantom what the word really means

damn it. the above was not to show that i am a soap opera freak coz i am not. i choose the shows i watch carefully and this one has some brains behind it as simplistic as i made things sound. the point was after i watched it.. it brought me back to something which we were talking about in school... o yea i think i forgot to mention that rory was a virgin and she gave away her first to shit. dont accuse me of sympathising with the girl. i am always backing the guy and hating the girl. but this situation is different. anyway we were having gp lesson that day.. and pri/hazel/joy were presenting on postcards from congo (check it out if u wanna know how much cruelty women have been put up too). and there were so many gruesome images u could conjure up from their words it was just absolutely disgusting.. there was this woman who was raped repeatedly while her mother if im not wrong was being burnt alive and she could smell the flesh burning and there were babies who were raped too.. i dont really wanna say anymore but things are even more horrible than you could ever imagine. and you know what? even though these women did not CHOSE to get raped.. their husband shuned them after coz they were unclean now. WHAT THE HELL IS THAT!!!!! i think zhen, sarah, meixi, shaf, dee and i were talking bout it during break.. cant remember.. and.. it's just so disgusting what men can do to women. meixi said that actually the problem also lies with the women coz they could change their fates they could do something about it. but i dont think so. i think in today's world women are increasingly gaining more power even over men sometimes coz i think one thing women will always have over men and that sexual power which men can barely resist. just think of all the embarrassing situations men get into for women, trust me dont underestimate that power.. if u wanna know how much watch mtv. but yet.. there's nothing women can do when it comes to abuse. sexual, verbal abuse. coz the physical power that men have is just too strong to resist and the emotional trauma i think is too great. in situations like congo, i mean it is virtually impossible for these women to actually resist these men no matter how much they try. i think rape is the absolutely most disgusting thing in the world.. yea even beside terrorism. the shame and abuse one has to endure... it's crazy! yea ok i know guys get raped too but the MAJORITY obviously are girls. can u image how it feels like.. no dont. it's just disgusting. disgusting. disgusting. it may seem unfair to say this, but it really isnt. hear me out first. i think in guys there is this.. cannibal like instinct. not in that they would love to eat human flesh.. (i think) but that they.. seek that of females.. however weird that sounds. it doesnt matter if u are a wanted rapist or some harmless student somewhere out there in big old singapore. i think there's just that similar instinct in every single guy.. is it testosterone i dont know. and i dont mean on 'big scale' things like rape. even checking out girls on the street.. in clubs.. and i dont mean just looking.. but cleavage.. legs.. everything.. and if you have a girlfriend.. as nice and gentlemanly as u are.. there's always some instinct in there the need for.. lets put it nicely.. 'affection' u wanna ease into kissing first.. and then the whole making out thing.. grabbing her waist.. whatever else u wanna grab i dont know.. but.. it is there. you can deny it or say im a different guy or im just harmless. but that's just bull! even looking at a girl wearing short shorts.. it's even an example. and when it's all over and done with. the guy just moves on and the girl will usually be stuck with the shame. just look at the dean and rory thing. in congo. these things are obviously on a much bigger scale and it's just so damn absolutely disgusting. it's very very sad how women are at such a huge disadvantage in situations like this. sigh i dunno whether to write on now.. coz it's just quite sad.. but a message to all girls.. remember NEVER to give in or do things with you boyfriend just coz he initiates it and you feel even obliged.. or it's fine.. we always have our own rights man.. and always listen to that little voice in your head. coz guys are animals. as nice as they are.. they are animals. i am NOT a feminist, but i know what im saying is right! coz again this is my blog and i'm always right! sigh. so.. yea i dunno.. so sad man. but we must.. be strong!!!
and guys.. dont go all good guy on me ok. im not buying it. im not saying it's your fault coz it's just the way males have been made. but yea i am saying that it sucks. and if u cant even make a conscious effort to control yourselves even in little things.. and esp rapists. you really are the scum of the earth. FREAKING SCUM OF THE FREAKIN EARTH

o yea i just wanted to add on one more thing.. it is ironical though that some girls will go all out of their way to expose their cleavage, wear extremely short shorts/skirts or just completely body hugging stuff to attract guys. i think it's just.. very sad. i mean i guess we all do have this inclination to want to attract the opposite sex in a way or at least let them see us in a good light.. but to do so many things on purpose to make create that lust.. i think it's just very sad. not that these girls are pathetic coz i guess it's just human nature.. to want attention.. and love. but it's really sad in all sense of the word. in a way it's like girls are being held in these exhibition closures.. and guys are being given a tour.. sigh. very sad ):

i just discovered something about myself. i think i may actually love writing more than i thought i did. it's a great way to express your opinions.. and free yourself somehow. even though my english is so halfway there. even though i dont use bombastic words. even if i talk about the most simple things sometimes. hurray! i just went to mel's blog and tagged her tagboard. and i saw so many mels i forgot my name was weilynn so i put mel under my name. o dear. i shall finally really end on this embarrassing note.. which im sure will not be the last.

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