wow. my second post in a day. im such a geek. nah, it's just a new thing. and like people are always fascinated with new things, so am i. just that while this is new for me it's been new for the rest of the world for a few million years and running.

anyways, i suddenly feel like i've so many thoughts to express. on everything. from young sec 1 kids coming online with msn nics saying 'i'll never forget her...' and their obvious childish foolish ignorance to this lie called love...to the shasta groene case.. there are so many sick b*stards around.. just too many.. there're just so many thoughts and opinions on so many things running through my mind, it's so crazy i cant sleep at night. i can just lie in bed with these running thoughts for a few hours til it's like 4 something and still they dont go away. it's killing me man. hopefully this can be an outlet for me to let some of that brain juice spill out. it's flooding all the holes in my head which used to be previously occupied by brain matter.

i saw this episode of this show just now.. and he's right. it takes over u completely. and u dont even realise it. u keep lying to urself that no u're fine, in fact u were never this good, u couldnt be doing better. u think u're getting stronger, special, standing out from the crowd when in fact u're just killing urself and becoming weaker and weaker.. physically..mentally.. and i would think even spiritually. coz it's all just a big fat lie. and after that when the scales tip to the other side, u find u cant take back all this harm that u've done to urself and realise that this cycle could have been prevented in the first place. if only u werent so stupid. but it's easier said then done. how u get up and rebuild ur life from there. i think it's something which will affect u for the rest of ur life. it's a _______. it really is.


Morpheus


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