i was watching remember the titans last night (didnt really like it) and i had a sudden panic attack. like seriously. i've never felt so overwhelmed in any minute of my life.
why does it always turn out so ugly. just not cut out for it man. better to be left out.
yesterday was odac handing down.. humph.. im really not sure what to say here about that.. everything that i discussed.. er.. vigorously with lynette last night. haha. just looked thru the pix she put up on shutterfly.. was gonna say shutterbug. actually shutterbug sounds nicer.. anyways.. most of the pix made me feel good. but some.. grrrrr.. haha nette should know why. yesterday's ceremony of sorts was sad in many ways. i shall not elaborate why. but.. before i came to vj i always knew that i wanted to join odac. my interests in the outdoors is such a huge part of me.. but after going for b2b esp and attending some stuff.. i felt like.. what the hell. things were totally not what i thought they would be. so.. it's been different from what i expected.. to say the least.. but OLC was prob the turning point of my i-feel-so-let-down-what-am-i-doing-here thinking. olc was like.. totally smashing man!!! haha i had the BEST GROUP EVER whirlwind could just kick anyone's ass anyday. i'll never forget everything we went through together in those 5 days.. and.. there're a lot of friendships there that i would really like to keep. it's not so much what we could do.. but more the people.. :) anyways.. i think the 21st batch.. are really a group of very.. different people. honestly speaking here. we are prob not as unified.. or that irritating word i hate.. BONDED as a whole.. but.. i think everyone is special in their own way.. and.. we're a unique batch. dont need to be like anyone else. well let's just say im glad im in our batch and not another one. lynette u know.. :) i really do think that there're a lot of great people in our batch.. even though we might not be that close.. mmm.. it's been a very very interesting ride.. in many many ways. some great memories. some not so good. and some.. which come very close to regret. but i dont regret. u shouldnt regret anything. but im grateful for everyone i've met.. and so.. thank you.. 21st.. u guys rock. i thought i'd just put up a few pix on some people.. who were a big part of my odac life.. and more than that.. in vj.. :) but.. limited space here man..
geok and the whirlwind girls (shiqi + nette) minus me.. and jianpeng :) it's great talking to geok.. she's just so honest and open about things :) as for shiqi and nette.. i prob couldnt have gone through olc without u guys. it's been a blast man. nette thanks for being there all the way from mg til now.. and shiqi.. i think u're an amazing person. really. i didnt think that people like u existed and im glad u changed my mind! haha these 3 girls rock man. see doesnt this pic look so much better minus me. no kidding.
nette and jianpeng how can you not like jianpeng. im so glad i got to know him from whirlwind.. i remember one of the first things he said to me was during hornet attack on the hockey pitch before we boarded the buses.. he asked me how he was gonna hold the flag and get down in position at the same time and everyone was already like.. diving into their ponchos. haha.. sigh. thanks man for just being so damn funny and such a nice guy. china rocks. it really does.
zhiyang. wow. like shiqi i never knew such people existed until i met him. he's definitely the most decent guy i've met ever. and im honestly really honoured to call him a friend. i think things for him have come quite a long way since i knew him.. from whirlwind too. haha. he really is one of a kind. and im really glad to have been able to have helped u in any way that i could.. i think it'll be hard but i hope our friendship may last even though we hardly communicate anymore. mmm.. he's set for big things in life. just.. admiration and respect man. treasure him! haha
my beloved chairman sean and vice-chair shiqi. haha sean.. the first impressions i got of him from whirlwind was wow. this guy is freaking competitive and quite arrogant. haha but having that attitude is what makes sean sean man. there's actually a damn nice guy lurking somewhere below.. deep somewhere.. :) and can be damn full of shit too in a great way of course :) it's been a real pleasure knowing u.. thanks for the concern and everything. really. i just.. wish all the best for you. shiqi has backed him up so much man in everything that we've done. i think they're both damn capable people. although sean needs er.. a bit.. of pushing. haha. but u still rock man! just like starfruit cum.. ok anyway moving on..
shiqi and daryl handsigning (notice how many pictures shiqi is in.. she's such a huge part of odac).. haha. daryl is hilarious. he never fails to brighten up the day and make everyone just totally dissolve in laughter. and he holds strong on the word of God.. daryl is an amazing person. he's so crazy and yet i think there's another side to him which is just very sensible and dependable. thank you daryl too for everything really. u've added so much life and fun to my odac life and been a great friend out of it. one regret i do have is that i never really got to know people better.. but there is still time for that.. i love your nua face man.
sarah adding the final touches to our permanent (it better be permanent dammit..) mark in the odac room. sarah is very unique. we've had quite a few.. interesting and great conversations. and im just thankful that there's someone who feels the same about a lot of things too! she too has great faith in God.. im just glad he let me meet such people in vj.. im sure she'll go far too.. she has a lot to contribute to this world.. :)
21st batch
finally.. whirlwind.. well.. sort of.. interrupted on purpose by hock chuan.. who i was totally glad to have GI-ed with for olc and got to know better through that stint.. another joker too. i wish u all the best in ur hairy ambition..
and.. FINALLYYYYYYY.. WHIRLWIND uninterrupted. everyone together. thanks for all the fantastic memories. i love our cheers! haha.. i love u guys really. really really really.
ok that's the end of my sudden photo-craze. i dont think i've ever used the word love so much. and i cannot believe how nice and happy with the world i've suddenly seemed to become esp here. i think i'm just damn tired of being cynical. when i had my panic attack last night i remember feeling everything opposite of all the good feelings that this entry represents. but.. JC life is drawing to an end.. and i dont really wanna waste my energy looking back on all the negatives. what's the point? i'll just treasure the good memories that ODAC has given me. thanks guys
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