you know how sometimes.. u know there's a huge hurdle ahead.. but it seems there's time.. and it doesnt worry you so much.. and suddenly something amazing happens.. and u're just overwhelmed by a huge surge of feelings.. and you remain in that heaven of complete happiness.. and yet.. somewhat denial..

and after you've just.. really.. made yourself get high.. suddenly.. your world just comes crashing down again when reality sets in. and it just hits you.. out of no where. and you've just already.. just used up so much energy to make yourself happy.. and there's just suddenly in that moment none left to pick yourself up anymore...

and suddenly something comes along.. and.. it just hits you right in the face again.. and even in this place of complete complete utter despair.. maybe there could be hope somehow.. as you stare into that neverending hole of darkness..

sigh.. do you know? coz i really dont know man. i really dont know. i really dont know anymore.
a cry of desperation.. to myself

a total eclipse of the heart

OMG. THE CHANNEL U SPORTS NEWSCASTER CAN GO TO HELL
im SICK and tired of hearing people put down newcastle.. in speech. in the newspapers.. everything.
i watched the stupid owen thing to see the reception he got at st james and all the newcaster could go on and on about was this being only owen's second choice but it was some consolation the masses that came out to see him
WHAT THE HELL. newcastle fans are not a bunch of fools dammit! im so sick of these idiots. freak la. go to hell.