i was being.. well extremely _______ just now.. there are just certain words which are not worth to be put here.. and for some weird reason i came to a sudden realisation about somethings.. and i think i really may finally be able to see.. a road beyond the immediate one ahead.. and a future of different possibilities.. not just what i want.. but accepting what i can have.. and really what God has planned for me.. i just suddenly felt this.. rather strongly.. u know one of those feelings that u feel then u think.. wait it must just be me trying to trick myself.. but.. i dont think so.. i think it's more than that..

i have kinda always prided myself on the fact that im rather open minded on certain things.. but i realise that i am not really.. by being so stubborn and only wanting to have one option and just.. banking my entire life on that.. that's narrow-mindedness for you.. sure every path u take will be different.. but every experience is unique.. and i think maybe what i cant see now.. well.. i dont know. but yea.

no one is defined.. im not defined.. by what i could so called accomplish.. and what i couldnt.. what i could do or what i could.. what i get or what i do not get.. i think we're defined more.. on our beliefs.. worth.. interaction with others.. faith even.. i dunno man.. i think it's.. our character and the people around us.. i dunno how to put this la.. it's so much more than that.. but it's just that what appears so real to you now.. u just go along with it coz u have no choice but to go along with the rest of the world.. but it's just so much more man

i think i might actually be growing up

finally

i hope