i just saw an article on msn that said something about when women say the 'S' word too much.. or something like that. so being me immediately the first word that came to mind was shit. it must be shit. ok apparently i must be the only one who thinks so coz the word turned out to be sorry -_- i think im wired wrongly somewhere. i realise too that i say sorry a. lot. it's just very subconcious a lot of the time and has just been ground into my head for some reason. but sometimes it just pisses me off how sorrys and thank yous are not reciprocated. i dont mean like stupid petty things im so ok with just saying sorry and thank you the entire time coz it's just part of me but im talking about irritatingly rude singaporeans. argh. i know im not exactly the most articulate person language wise and shit just comes rolling off my tongue but at least i show u some respect man.

i think im getting slightly sick of listening about commando escapades in brunei. there my brother is talking bout it again. mmm. ok maybe better a brother than no brother i guess. he kinda seems to have lost quite a bit of weight and muscle mass.. prob coz he had like bloody diahorrea literally and and some shit fever during the last few days.. mmm. anyway my bro said that some guy in their team got stung by something and it was so bad he really died literally for a while. no heartbeat no pulse no nothing. and no one really dared to touch him for fear of making it worse. and my bro said phang wei. i have no idea if that's how u spell his name.. he was a vj housecap last year or something.. went to perform like CPR. so i asked him whether he saved that guy and my bro said sort of - coz that guy suddenly came to when he stopped performing it -_- hmm. quite worrying huh. but v interesting.

A has brought up B. but there comes a point in time.. when B has grown up but A may find it difficult to accept that.. and unfortunately A is stuck in A's own world and is prob unable to see that. But no one can say anything about A either coz.. it's just sad. but the real tragedy is that if A continues on how A is going.. B will just.. deflect further away.. and so will C.