i dont even dare to do anything.. good for myself.
ive just gotten so used to being.. a bit of a loser.. i wanna stick here..
i have so many dreams.. and i've been telling myself for so long that.. i would do what was necessary to achieve it.
but i just do not believe i have any ability at all.. and im so scared to do anything.. coz at the end of the day if i fail to.. do what i intended to.. im done. it'll be confirmed then that really there is no hope.
sigh. ____ man.

just really dont deserve anything. and i think im saying this to convince myself that what im doing.. or not doing now.. is right