soooo.. it's christmas eve today.

for some reason i've had plenty much to say about christmas this year.. i dont mean christmas christmas.. but christmas the 'festive holiday'. and it's not been good stuff. the thing that pisses me off the most are the parties that people have i dunno where.. at orchard or clubs or whatever.. and what the heck do they do.. i dunno connect like crazy under the mistletoes.. and just get drunk drunk drunk. whatever they do. it's just so stupid.

everyone keeps saying how.. ok some people keep saying how christmas has become so commercialised and it sucks. but i guess in a very realistic sense.. it's only natural that things have evolved this way.. we being humans.. and not everybody is christian.. not everyone is going to really see the 'real meaning' of christmas. and sometimes maybe in our complaints about it we may forget too.. so i guess.. as long as you realise it urself.. you know.. and remind ur friends around you.. yea..

what the heck am i saying!!!!!!!!!! i cant cant cant express myself. i give up.

today is a good day. it's all the stupid small things which piss you off. but it's not small to me. so damn annoying. stop it already. im not stupid at all. im sick of all these conveying a message through innocent methods shit. to think that i can fall for anything. no not fall head over heels fall but be deceived fall is just incredibly stupid. everything would be alright. with the truth and upfrontness. but no! apparently. after a million times, it is still continuing.zhen if u read this ever.. i think u'll know what small little things im talking about. not worth getting myself angry over lame shit. ok. i am calm.

today is one interesting day.. next week freaking busy.. life gets very very interesting from this point forth..