i think night sucks. i hate it. especially the last bit before u fall asleep.. coz it's at that time that.. it's kinda just you and yourself. i HATE writing stuff like that. but i just want to dammit! argh.
during the day.. u have shit to distract urself with.. and the knowledge that u can turn a shit day around to a good one coz the end of the day hasnt been reached yet. but by the time u're on ur bed u know u've just screwed yet another day and it's the time when u have to come face to face with yourself.. about.. whatever shit is bothering u or whatever it is.. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh. crap.

it's at times like that. that u realised how well.. much we're grown up. not grown up as in we're all so damn matured coz that is so far from the truth.. but in that everyone is so different from a few years back.. and what someone has grown into may be.. and usually is different from how the person thinks about him or herself.. argh.

on another note.. i was thinking about the ritz and i wonder if the windows are those kind that u can see out from inside but they're black from the outside.. so even if u're using the bathtub and standing naked in that damn open bathroom which is seriously traumatising whether anyone can see u from outside.. what a horrible thought! sigh. i am wasting my brain on shit.

all my academic crap over the years have come to nothing. hurray!!!!! and i dont know what to do now. yay!!!!! and blah blah blah what a horrible post! if i read this on someone's blog it's the kind that will make me go this person is such an IDIOT! like shut up already! yea shut up!

deck the halls with boughs of holly.. falalalalaaaa..lalalaLA.