this morning when i woke up and was dilly dallying as usually.. comtemplating whether i should go to class coz i havent finished writing a paper.. and i heard someone scream oh my God. and i just instinctively drew the curtain.. and saw this..




white. hmm. o shit it's snow.

i've never seen or experienced it before obviously.. i am extremely stoic and dont understand why people have create such a big hoo-ha over it. but.. it was quite cool. was a bit of a mini-blizzard i think... rather.. exciting. hahaa

this is what it was like a few hours later


1 december. i just realised yesterday it was the last month of the year.. and today was thinking.. how this year has passed so extremely fast.. the last few years have been crazy for reasons.. but this year has been... prob the most dynamic year of my life ever.. both negative.. positive.. everything.. just so much has happened. i would never have imagined this.

you know how life kinda.. breaks up into parts in a sense.. i think this year represented that break.. i feel like such a kid still.. but i think there's no way i can be a kid anymore in some sense.. there's just a lot more.. things i need to be responsible for.
being away from home so much coz of army.. and now studies.. making an effort to keep-up friendships.. it isnt so easy when u dont face each other in school everyday.. accepting more responsibilities.. towards my career.. prob family too.. and esp myself.. feeling so much failure and helplessness.. and yet.. sometimes savoring.. (hmm. my spelling has become american) the fruits of my labor. hahaaa.. learning a lot more about people.. the good.. the bad.. both sometimes undistinguishable.. getting my first own bank account.. debit card.. shua-ing and shua-ing it.. if u think im suaku i dont give a shit.. facing the.. perils of being alone.. and having to be responsible for my own daily life.. everything. i think that's something ive struggled with a bit due to certain circumstances even though i know that independence is er.. one of my traits -_- but.. the journey of discovery has been tough but... pretty cool.. just basically.. accepting and taking more responsibility.. much more than before.. for everything. i dont know how to explain it.

it suddenly surfaced in my mind that a few years down the road i would look back and think.. o please. that change was nothing, coz so many more things would have taken place.. but no. i think.. and i am going to make this be.. that transition for me.

1 dec 2006. what an appropriate day