there're a lot of things.. which i need to get off my chest.. but no time now.. and dont feel like going into.. lengthy prose.. so..

(1) was reading the newpaper today with the best sports quotes of the year and ashley cole says something like when he heard 55 000 pounds, he almost swerved his car (btw.. swerve is a damn tricky word to spell.. almost caught me there). and then it says, ashley cole said this when he found out arsenal were not willing to pay him 60 000 and only 55 000. he later joined chelsea.

...

WHAT THE HECK. i used to play CM and being stupid brainless and childish.. well.. ok MORE stupid, brainless and childish back then i saw some of the very like.. young up and coming lowly players, they were only paid a MISERLY 3000 pounds a week, and i was like.. o man how do they survive. ... since then i have realised what a STUPID thinking process that was. the money involved in football is just crazy crazy crazy. and this IDIOT... overpaid idiot here is complaining about 55 000 only.. and yet he so many like.. young kids look up to him.. sigh. what is wrong with this world. i understand. but i dont understand. i dont understand how people can be so damn selfish and others so disillusioned.

i dont support alan shearer for no reason

(2) the recent news about trump and miss usa has been annoying me. for those who dont know, miss usa was rumoured to be going to be stripped of her title after reports surfaced of her wild partying and generally very unbecoming behaviour (o man there is a 'u'. brit spelling. not american. notice) in public. but trump has excused her. sigh. in the first place, we all know beauty pageants are bullshit. but yet they still continue on.. and these 'amazing young women' who win are expected to be role models and all.. but seriously.. all this episode has revealed is.. - more bullshit to that. it's just pathetic

(3) i honestly honestly think.. i have become very very pro-asian since going to the states.. and im worried that ive become quite anti.. well anti other things. i dont know why. i hope not. cos that is slightly scary thought.. scary and stupid. but it's not that bad.. i just.. i dont know. it's actually slightly difficult for me to watch american shows now.. like it's kinda uncomfortable. i dont know why. i am just slightly crazy

(4) yes i am back. but right now. i am.. non-existant.

(5) i miss my friends a lot.. you have no idea how much...

sigh.

- me