cool shark

im typing this as im watching infernal affairs in the library. ive recently developed a huge interest in asian films.. since my first class for chinese cinema when we watched initial d.. went to borrow new police story.. which was great.. and infernal affairs.. which was just really.. perfect. so damn good. im watching it again from the library coz the i borrowed for 1 buck was kinda spoilt in parts. yea. im hooked. already watched 2 and 3. :D

i dont mean this is a positive or negative way.. but merely a fact that most of my friends.. and when i say most i mean.. 99%.. are kinda bananas. im damn sure i used to be one. but i think im extremely different now. i think..

the honest fact is bananas are damn proud of the fact that they're white inside, even if no one really voices it out. most bananas maybe. and when they complain about their shit chinese, it's more of pride that it sucks... rather than being really upset/ashamed about it. sadly.

i must say cheenaness to me.. like for example in lecture when you hear people talking in very singaporean accented chinese about.. like.. ni zuo le homework ma.. or.. just basically discussing the most mundane things in chinese.. still prob will annoy me.. yea i am an idiot. but.. i think there're really a lot of just.. really great... "cheena" people around.. i think i met some in training and seriously i think they're just damn cool.. and a lot of the time.. much better than any arrogance that all these englishy people have to offer.

i prob will never lapse into chinese in conversations... but i just really.. do embrace my heritage so much more now man.. and i think everyone should too.. i think sometimes the problem with asia.. singapore in particular.. or at least some people.. look so much towards the west.. america.. europe.. look up to them for their culture.. language.. sophistication.. whatever.. and i think that's what kinda stops us from moving forward in a sense.. always trapped in this role of inferiority. we just.. really need to develop our own culture. our own confidence in being asian..

sigh. i wish i could sound more sophisticated in my expression.. but i cant. im just a simple person. anyways... i realised that my blog is super easily searchable.. i was testing it out and typed my name in yahoo. and it came up. shit. does anyone know how to remove it from there. please let me know man :(

o yea and if you haven. GO WATCH INFERNAL AFFAIRS! i wanted to watch the departed when it came out last time... but i wont now. i mean i havent seen it.. but from trailers.. and knowing the american style.. they've just added so much sex, drugs, expletives to all the plot.. and of course they wanna include these deep thinking classic scenes where i dont know.. leo dicaprio will say something really catchy and soundbite-ish and the whole audience will go oooooo... and he'll win a stupid oscar or something. i know its scorcese and all that but they just turn the movie so.. commercial.. and trashy.. (maybe im just being biased) whereas wu jian dao just really.. presents the whole plot in such a simple.. subtle.. beautiful manner.. so go watch it if you havent! and if you are an extremely emotional person/crybaby (: mmm. beware. there're two parts that'll kill you off.

there's this pol sci class on comparative politics in developing nations we're doing, and we're all supposed to give one presentation throughout the whole course on a developing country... mine's on april 25 so i guess i have time to build up some courage and confidence.. or get worse. but.. we'll see. anyways he was asking us to pick and he said my name and somehow the words "cambodia" just popped out of my mouth.. no idea why. maybe it's fate. the only thing i know about them is i think that mass murderer guy.. pol pot or something? and their connection to the vietnam war.. have. a. lot. of. research. to. do. class today was really interesting.. the discussion centred on the muslim world, somalia, and erm.. o yea turkey. hmmm.. really makes me feel like backpacking across southeast asia.. at least. anyone interested? it's always safer with someone else.. i need to do something like that really.. before uni ends coz i think the moment work begins.. i'll definitely have no life. i know i'll be immersed in it. im crap at balancing.

something on msn.com caught my eye. these japanese marine park staff caught a "5-foot long creature, which they identified as a female frilled shark, sometimes referred to as a “living fossil” because it is a primitive species that has changed little since prehistoric times."


very nice.