i like to watch oprah.. sometimes.. but one reason i dont others.. or i find quite a bit of hypocrisy in some of the shows.. and unfortunately the host herself.. is her.. o man what's that word.. ok i cant remember the word but i am talking about.. just the show of her obvious wealth.. what she preaches.. is against materialism. a focus on the mind, the spirit, and yet, she showcases all these brands.. shows all this money.. a huge appreciate for a lifestyle of decadence.. another thing which really bugs me.. is how she.. advertises the appreciation of different... ____ _____.. and yet she herself.. ________ with it... it's like.. it really is doing one thing yet saying another.. and people just go along with how great it is that finally there's someone doing something other htan the norm... standing out for those who 'dont really seem to have it that great'.. when in actual fact.. it's a complete lie.. hypocrisy.. and the sad thing is how much this plays out in real life.. and people around.. dont realise it.. admire it.. i dont know. it bothers me a lot..

i wish.. sometimes i really wish i had a less active mind.. your mind kills me so so much sometimes.. i dont know.

something else i was thinking about.. why all these singers and actresses and what have u are all so 'good looking'.. well.. maybe not so much in the US as compared to asia but generally a fact.. like people praise him/she for being so young.. and so good looking.. but wow so talented as well.

i guess the question to ask is - why does it seem that only good looking people are talented? and the obvious answer is that that is complete bullshit.. it's just that society selects only these people to 'make appear' talented.. and even if they're not in the first place to be made into that product. im sure a lot of people know this. but my point is how much it bugs me when people go.. wow he/she is so good looking.. and also so talented! no. so many things in this world.. are just so overrated.. and it just continues on influencing generation after generation of people..

sometimes i think.. well.. i mean.. the world is in good hands.. like.. despite people's obvious stupidity at the lower ends over superficial things.. somehow things work fine.. countries work fine.. under control of the government etc.. but then i realise that is bullshit.. coz everyone is human.. even the people at the top.. lky is human, so is bush, so is that huge slice of shit which is osama binladen, and everybody, everybody has their stupid flaws... and then u look at the world.. usually u take for granted that everything is going well.. except for some things like.. o no... war in israel/palastine or.. iraq war.. but i mean.. it's ok.. its far away.. doesnt affect.. but if u look closely... u realise the world.. is really just.. collapsing in itself.. supported by all these humans with all their individual flaws.. and yet poeple look up to.. and rely on them coz if not.. what other hope do you have...

i dont know how to put it.. but sigh...

i guess... it can all be summarized.. in.. a cry for help.