(1) my blog layout sucks. it's damn annoying to read. but i love the picture.. sigh. those were the days..i will change it when i go back to sg... yea i paid one month's salary to come back to sg to hole myself up at home and play with html. i love being a geek.
(2) i realised that annoying memories.. just disappear. you really cant remember and u doubt that they even happened.. i guess time does really.. permit forgiveness in a sense
(3) i make a promise now.. that im going to cut down on saying shit. not entirely.. i guess.. coz sometimes there's just no other better substitute for an exclamation or reflection of extreme feelings. why i decided this.. firstly.. i really just need to project better behavior. i think ive just gotten so used to.. being.. the guy. or.. not the girl.. or like just some trash at the side of the road.. and.. honestly.. i want to be better than that. secondly would be.. it really doesnt sound good at all. and thirdly would be.. my roommate and i.. we get along well but we are very very different.. whatever i am like - she is the opposite.. and she uses the f word the whole entire time at first i didnt really care coz im super easy going.. but a few days ago.. it started to annoy me.. a little.. it's just really.. awful to hear so much swearing.. and i dont wanna be like that myself.. weird huh considering my career choice. but so what. back in ocs.. i mean im totally ok like for the fun of it or whatever.. (even though of course.. less is best) but sometimes.. i did get a little annoyed.. here it's just excessive.. but yea.. hey it taught me something. more on roommate point later.
(4) it's official i have survived four nights without sleeping. my body clock is totally.. flipped. on the plus side, there wont be jet lag when i go back to sg. like in. er. 1+ months
(5) in the past 2 weeks ive received letters from home from 2 people who i like. a lot. hahaa. and the thing is.. they both gave me the same thing - magnetic bookmarks. is it the in thing back home now? hahaa ive seized to believe in coincidences anymore.. thank you.. i love it :D and one of u.. the one with the snotface. ur letter is damn siaocharbo.
(6) i went for lecture today and the professor was out of town.. so the teaching assistant did it.. i dont know how the singapore system works but if it's different.. teaching assistants are grad students/juniors/seniors and they take discussions.. like 'tutorials'. o man that horrible word seems so foreign and long ago.. sadly. if it's the same system in singapore.. then just take it that im a mountain tortoise. but anyways he was kinda nervous and stuff.. and people just started leaving one by one.. and i just felt that.. that was so damn rude. it's quite sad. but yet those who stayed.. continued to participate in the lecture. i wanted to contrast this with things in singapore.. but both sides have their good and bad. i wont go into that. brain. not. working.
(7) last and most crucial point... living with my roommate and being 'exposed' to the other kinda life.. has taught me something. other than realising that i am really a guai kia and geek, i realised that.. i like how things are... with my life and my friends, people who i choose to hang out with, the things we do. i mean im definitely NOT guai. i think quite a few people can vouch for that.. but yet in some ways.. i think i really am. in primary school - i was perceived to be ultimate guai. somehow things just.. er. changed. from there. but the point is.. sometimes to be honest i really wonder how it's like for those people who are perceived to be 'in'. you know.. the kind who do sports/good looks/rich/club/hang out a lot/flirt. yea ok im making generalisations. so scrap that. i mean just people who generally.. belong to the perceived level of 'coolness' and very in or whatever and every night go out have fun.. things like that.. and like. wow.. i wonder how it would be if i was more.. like that.. in a sense. instead of being a guai geek. but i've realised... that bull****. im really glad my life turned out this way. my roommate keeps asking me to go out to clubs.. bars.. but it makes me realise even more so that's not what i want at all.. im just content with being alone.. or with a few good friends.. just eating.. watching a movie.. talking. that's all i need for all my life and it's enough. i dont need 'fun'. and i think.. life has been pretty good to me coz it has really just sent me the best friends anyone could ask for. they're just such great people in their own right. yes this is the millionth time im saying this but who cares. undeserving. that's the only words that pops to mind. and of course i would be refering to myself. not them.
Your Birthdate: November 20 |
 You are a virtual roller coaster of emotions, and most people enjoy the ride. Your mood tends to set the tone of the room, and when you're happy, this is a good thing. When you get in a dark mood, watch out - it's very hard to get you out of it. It's sometimes hard for you to cheer up, and your gloom can be contagious. Your strength: Your warm heart Your weakness: Trouble controlling your emotions Your power color: Black Your power symbol: Musical note Your power month: February |
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