i believe that the people we meet in our lives... it's all for a purpose.. and today.. just proved that completely.

i am so grateful.. but yet.. really feel like.. i have let _______________ and many many people down.. but today.. it gave me a definite motivation.. inspiration... (:

even though we're going very different ways.. and leading very different lines.. thank you. really. (:

anyways i bought this book from kinokuniya that day.. called.. the damage i think or something like that.. it's about this australian guy called warren fellows i think (too lazy to find the book) who got caught traficking (how the heck do u spell this word!) tra-fic-king.. should be correct right.. anyways yea drugs into thailand and got put in prison for 12 years.. and it's about all the HELL he went through there.. and i've been reading and it's really like hell in hell man.

there was something in the prologue about one of the worst things that happened there.. and i cant do justice to his experience so i'll just describe it briefly. apparently they were in their cells at night when they heard these damn hellish screams from am frenchman in a cell nearby and it continued for extremely long.. finally he and some other englishman begged a guard to let them into his cell and when they got there they saw the frenchman was just like.. completely zoned out and still screaming like hell and below his ear there was a HUGE lump. and so they held him down, the englishman used a razor to cut his skin and out spilled a whole load of worms.. maggots.. etc.. apparently a cockroach had crawled into his ear and laid eggs down there... mmmmmmm...

i told my bro and he said something like that happened when he went to brunei for an exercise too. a cockroach crawled into his friend's ear when he was sleeping and his friend just spent the whole time screaming like nobody's business.. apparently he could hear all the ssssssss sounds and what have you.. so they went to the doc and the doc drowned the cockroach first and then inserted a scissors inside to cut it into half so he could take it out... and his ear was bleeding like crap for a very long time.

crap man. i hope that never happens to me when i go outfield. there was one night in service term when i was sleeping.. damn tired as always.. and suddenly i felt this pain in my ear.. and i woke up in like a semi conscious state and i could feel whatever was inside. it was either a huge mosquito or fly.. and hear all the zzzzzzzzzzz-ing sounds.. crap man. then i was like o ok.. and thank goodness my sbo was beside me.. took out the pincer thing from my jackknife and stuck it into my ear and pulled whatever it was out.. and then went back to sleep.. after that i thought maybe it was a dream.. but im absolutely sure it was not.. mmm.. ok man. i shall go and do some investigation on earplugs or something.

sooo.. tmr's the ceremony. and im dreading it.. honestly.. i really really hate taking pictures.. and tmr is gonna be cheese cheese cheese non stop. sigh. im terrible. im supposed to be honoured. and excited. and i am. but im dreading it horribly too..

so wow im shocked huiluan! hahaa i still think of u occasionally i didnt know u still came here.. (: honestly u made bmt that much more.. survivable. hahaa really. i still remember talking with you and all.. it's great. and of course ur guy craziness is just simply hilarious.. all the best to u man.. in smu and whatever direction in life u choose.. (:

and yes sarah shi kin kin. i miss you too...