Wednesday, April 11, 2007

minor victories

i scored a minor victory last monday, last saturday and today. but now im looking back and all i can do is cringe.
i wish i sounded way more intelligent when i speak. i wish i had the gift of eloquence. and actually was intelligent.
it seems like people are able to just go on and on.. like what's your opinion on this.. dadadaa... sigh.
and all i can offer is.. hmmm... i dont know. hurhurrrr.. freeze.
whatever it is i always sound like a mountain tortoise. sigh. how.
im going to kill myself for the rest of my life over every little thing i say.

have exactly 12 hours now til my first lesson tomorrow to write my essay. sigh.
its actually not torturing. because the topic really interests me.
but the thing about writing is how... you have to incorporate points from books and articles here and there so that you have an impressive bibliography and collection of 'footnotes'... and everything has to come into a cohesive manner and the difficulty comes in finding points from all over hte place to link together... i dont know.
ok. it's possible.

am still a member of the girl guides as a young adult... and they send emails now and then over very interesting things... like being a leader for some scouts/guides in some singapore amazing race thing... or extremely interesting jobs.. there was once they sent an application for some international work in switzerland... and there's an extremely interesting internship they forwarded too today... too bad i cant work anything out with the current situation. hmm.. or can i.

think the opportunities to do things are really out there...
gotta grab it when you can.

ok. the end.

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