read this.

o man. i have so much crap to do... but i have have have to blog about something first.
it's really really really interesting... to me at least. have to blog now. before i forget.

BUT. before that. a package arrived today:


yeah that is a shitload of stamps isnt it. and look closer:


shit. that's the price of freaking express mail. which i paid for out of my own pocket. need to get this project done.. so no choice. crap. so moral of the story is... dont procrastinate. research early.

all right what i REALLY wanna talk about

so im doing this course in chinese cinema.. and my professor is a chinese guy who's been in the states for a damn long time and i think he's a damn big shot in the film world... he knows many of the famous directors etc... but anyway.
this week's film we were supposed to watch was broke---- mountain. and this is kinda sensitive topic so i wasnt sure whether i wanted to blog about it.. but then who the hell comes here anyway other than innocent harmless friends. so... i shall proceed.

so we were having a discussion in class.. (ok. to prevent being googled. or yahooed. or alta vista-ed or something... dont know why everyone says googled.. there're so damn many search engines. but anyway. yes. the director of broke, who of course is ang le-, shall be referred to as AL. and the film shall be broke). so my prof was saying that he and AL had gone out for some drinks sometime in 2003 and AL revealed to him his latest project as being broke, but he didnt go into specifics about the whole homosexuality issue. so my prof asked him when the film was going to be made and released. and AL said.. he couldnt do it now. not when his father was still alive. and my prof found it interesting... but he didnt push further.

so anyway AL's father did pass away, AL made the film after and of course he won the oscar and all. my prof said... he understood what Al meant when he said he could not make the film when his dad was alive, when he watched broke.

i dont really feeling like talking about this... coz it just... doesnt feel right to talk about. but.. it is just an interesting point of view. my prof suddenly said that in his opinion... he's quite certain that AL is 100% gay. if u've watched broke, one of the final scenes was when Ennis went to Jake's house after his death and the mum seemed to kinda accept him... my prof alluded it to a daughter-in-law being accepted finally in an Asian society. and he felt that's why AL said he could not make hte fim when his father was alive. coz i mean.. to us. Asians. it's still quite taboo.. especially for the older generation.. esp someone as well known as AL. who has a family himself. and my Prof said he thinks that... AL himself he can never ever admit it. and he never will.. so making a film.. in this way... (his first film too, by the way, was about homosexuality - wedding banquet) with such an ending... after his dad died was kinda his own way of like.. bringing some form of finality to things.

i was going to ask earlier why AL seemed to take a special interest in homosexual portrayals. but i guess i didnt have to anymore. at first i was like.. wait. what did my prof say... but my classmate beside me confirmed that i'd heard correctly. i asked my prof whether the film world thought the same as he did. and he said no they didnt. but he said he himself liked to... see films as a more personal thing. and linked them to the director.

my prof isnt someone who bullshits. or says things for the sake of being controversial. and in a way this isnt controversial. it's an opinion of someone who knows AL. and even him family. and the way he said it... it just seemed so sad...

so yeah. that's all on this for now.

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if anyone is free and has nothing to do... i suggest a really, really insightful good book called
"facing death in Cambodia" by Maguire Peter.

trust me. it's a really good read... not to completely sympathise and see cambodians as helpless individuals.. but to see how full of shit the international system is. danielle esp you should check it out since you read Loung Ung's bio.

all right. sigh. back to reality.

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ONE MORE THING.

reminder for self. no time to type anymore now... but have to talk about one last thing
singapore being seen... and even promoted as a gay capital of sorts:

http://iafrica.com/loveandsex/features/270778.htm

my prof was talking about it today. and i was like no! and everyone was hahahaa..
shit. ill talk about this another time.

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ok crap.last last edit.

just read the newpaper online and k dunst is saying some shit about spiderman being a flop without her, the director or tobey mcguire? o please. this is such a stupid doesnt matter thing. but seriously. please. i guess the role of a red headed vulnerable supposedly strong girl is too tough to handle for most. except of course. k dunst.