hello my fav SCE person...

this is a codified message for u.. hahaa yes im pretty damn sure we're talking about the same thing.. u know it's difficult for me to read ur blog now coz i keep thinking.. what am i missing out on.. and at the same time.. what the heck am i going back into.. hahaa sigh.. i wished i had stayed on with u guys.. and the big day is coming soon. im so so proud of u man!! congrats (: let me know how all the scholarship stuff is going yea... (:

and yea.. im worried.. big time. i dont want to be treated or seen like an incompetent idiot.. i just dont know how things are going to be.. sometimes i wonder why i didnt choose an 'easier way out'... but i had a four hour car ride just now and i was thinking about it.. and watching our wei zi ji feng kuang (hurhurhur) video on my laptop.. and listening to 'every ___________ son' over and over again. hahahahaa yea i know i am extremely crazy, and slightly retarded. but.. i think.. honestly.. in a way we're really lucky to have this 'challenge'.. and i was thinking about other things in the outside world.. and i think i would have an even harder time.. accepting doing anything else.. so yea embrace this challenge man!! haha as u have been.

of course im still worried.. but u know.. things will work out in the end they always do. and i believe ur time now.. even if u're stressed.. whatever.. i mean.. i believe u're gaining a shitload too man. so yea...

i think sometimes it's really kinda difficult.. coz u dont really have anyone to talk to who is in this position.. be it guys.. or girls.. or whatever.. but it's ok. u have me. and i have u. hahahahaa.. so yea! if anything.. just email me.. whatever.. i'll see u soon man. in the meantime.. continue having fun ground-digging. i know u am man. take care (:

me