since im sitting here waiting stupidly for something.. very stupidly.. but.. yea.. instead of doing something else which i really should be doing..or should have done a few weeks ago.. i shall just update my blog.. there's a lot of SHIT i've been wanting to say.. but i just cant be bothered to type it all down coz everything always comes out wrong and i've just been so damn busy. so i am gonna summarize my brain and type everything down and piss off the whole world and myself and then not give a shit. hurray.
1) singaporeans are a bunch of damn idiots. my sister fainted at the bus stop today and my mum was shaking her in panic.. (i wasnt around.. was having.. an interesting joyride..) and the bunch of 7 idiots at the bus stop stood still in their positions with a mere tilt of their heads towards my sister. honestly i dont feel pissed instead i find it so hilarious. freaking hilarious that it's so damn disgusting. and this lame excuse of a man actually stood BEHIND my mum to queue up to get into the bus. seriously. SERIOUSLY man. get a brain. or at least some eyes if that's possible. hey man singaporeans! can we stop being a bunch of retards!
2) which brings me to point number 2. no that last sentence was a stupid generalisation. all the shit i've said about singaporeans.. everything i've cursed about singapore.. it's not that i've changed all my views but it's damn childish to think that everyone is the same and ur country sucks. coz seriously. we're damn lucky that we were born here and not some other havoc place. and everyone is different. just so happens that every once in a while, a bunch of idiots choose to aggregate in a bus stop. it's not coz of the army which has made me more.. patriotic.. or less narrow minded towards singapore. i'd already been transforming my views.. and even more so now. i still see the good and the bad. but there are assholes every where u go and everywhere has it's own set of problems. the grass prob always seems greener on the other side.. but when u step over.. u start to see the shit between the blades.. and u know u're stepping into somewhere where u dont belong..
3) please! do NOT be a know it all in front of me. coz i cant tahan know it alls. coz NOBODY knows it all. i am not going to go into too long a rant, coz this is a topic as old as the hills and has pissed me off for as long as i can remember. just when u think a lesson is learnt.. bullshit. it isnt. and it's not disappointment coz i cant even care at all. it's just a huge load of annoyance. trust me. i know more on this one. so dont come give me some lecture and sound so damn indignant. it's the stupid ego thing. just STOP all that arrogance. it's bullshit you know. people always use that reverse psycho thing. they openly tell people that they're insecure but inside they're proud of the fact that they are in a weird sense. i cant really explain it. this front that people put up gives them a crap load of pride and at the end of the day if you lack the humility to break through that and be honest with urself.. u can NEVER.. never be to be put it lamely. a good human being. of coz that is only my opinion.. and of course.. even though i sound like such an idiot here.. i can put this across in a much nicer manner.. just that thinking of some things have made me get mad all over again. so i may be wrong i may be right. i dont care. am not asking anyone to agree or read this. so if u dont wanna read this.. GO AWAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
4) four. what is there more to say. yes. i am very confused. and then i go for something. and then im sure. and then i get confused again. this point. about the saf. i am not gonna elaborate. because why. because when u do speak about it certain people dont get a crap but they pretend they get a crap and actually try to educate u that they have much idea of crap than u know but that's bullshit. and for me this matter is very personal. i will speak to it maybe to my close female friends. but also not much coz talkign about this the entire time is just so damn isolating. so these thoughts i shall keep to myself and keep my highs and lows and my confusions and torture myself inwardly. hurray that is so damn fun.
sigh. why do i sound so angry everytime i type! i am actually quite a gentle.. ok scrap that word. u cant associate that with me. i am actually a very ___ person. really. too much in fact. and it's not that i try to be that way. it's just a personality trait. which is a negative thing sometimes. but that never does come across.. esp here i guess.. coz i type when im either frustrated/angry/sad. so.. sigh. whatever. i dont care.
Thursday, March 16, 2006
Friday, March 03, 2006
Saturday, February 25, 2006
Sunday, February 19, 2006
im just feeling.. damn jaded now. it's funny how things can change so fast within a week. it's not that this week sucked. it was tiring but good in it's own ways. it's just for some damn stupid reasons. and arghhhhhhh... i hope.. results just come out and shove urself into my face, so i can really see.. some image of what my future might be like..
Sunday, February 12, 2006
one thing that really pisses me off.. irony man.. when someone is being damn freaking ironical saying one thing.. but in fact doing another.. i dont understand why people cant see what the heck they really are like.. and just take away that arrogance.. that facade.. there's always a limit to my patience.. but i will hang in there.. i dont wanna say anything i regret.. and actually.. i know i wont. coz i have discovered.. that i am actually a rather nice person in that sense.. it just really isnt in my character to go search for stupid conflicts which are so damn un-needed.. and i really dont want to either.. so.. MOVING ON..
what a HORRIBLE start to this entry.. anyways. i cant believe it. but i was actually happy yesterday. yes happy. happy. happy. i am trying to let that word sink in.. i dont think a person can be fully happy.. maybe still a few things here and there.. but what the heck man.. booking out on sat and not fri was just.. damn good.. it gave me time to gather my thoughts.. relax.. and just enjoy the environment in all its.. peacefulness.. which is so uncommon.. and this week has been.. i realised that i cant use the word bad anymore. coz nothing really is bad. there's too much positives to take out from everything.. even if it sucked like hell or whatever.. i can only say that this week has been pretty interesting.. :) im glad it happened.. but im glad it's over.. hahaa
i have a few million thoughts.. which shall be posted in my head.. mmm so anyway on a completely unrelated topic.. some idiot in the newpaper yesterday dissed shearer.. albeit cautiously.. but he still did.. and i actually wasnt really pissed. coz im so used to it. sure.. he's not the crazy amazing player he used to be.. but he's just evolved into another sort of player.. and whatever he lacks in the skill and pace he used to have.. he more than makes up for it in his presence.. something which wont be around for much more :( he had two assists yesterday dammit!!!!! u dont always need to score a crapload of goals to prove ur worth.. although that would be damn good too..
i feel like.. and i know that a lot is expected of me.. it adds to my stress.. but freaking man. i discovered that i can be damn calm in the face of stress.. i have actually discovered something positive. it's amazing. but i am honoured.. that the expectation is high.. i just really dont wanna disappoint people.. and myself.. and i still dread so many things.. ok man.. i shall just try my hardest at everything...
am going to church soon.. and the pastor today.. many memories.. bad memories.. good memories are flooding back.. i hope today's sermon will speak to me.. sigh.. we'll see.. adios for another week..
what a HORRIBLE start to this entry.. anyways. i cant believe it. but i was actually happy yesterday. yes happy. happy. happy. i am trying to let that word sink in.. i dont think a person can be fully happy.. maybe still a few things here and there.. but what the heck man.. booking out on sat and not fri was just.. damn good.. it gave me time to gather my thoughts.. relax.. and just enjoy the environment in all its.. peacefulness.. which is so uncommon.. and this week has been.. i realised that i cant use the word bad anymore. coz nothing really is bad. there's too much positives to take out from everything.. even if it sucked like hell or whatever.. i can only say that this week has been pretty interesting.. :) im glad it happened.. but im glad it's over.. hahaa
i have a few million thoughts.. which shall be posted in my head.. mmm so anyway on a completely unrelated topic.. some idiot in the newpaper yesterday dissed shearer.. albeit cautiously.. but he still did.. and i actually wasnt really pissed. coz im so used to it. sure.. he's not the crazy amazing player he used to be.. but he's just evolved into another sort of player.. and whatever he lacks in the skill and pace he used to have.. he more than makes up for it in his presence.. something which wont be around for much more :( he had two assists yesterday dammit!!!!! u dont always need to score a crapload of goals to prove ur worth.. although that would be damn good too..
i feel like.. and i know that a lot is expected of me.. it adds to my stress.. but freaking man. i discovered that i can be damn calm in the face of stress.. i have actually discovered something positive. it's amazing. but i am honoured.. that the expectation is high.. i just really dont wanna disappoint people.. and myself.. and i still dread so many things.. ok man.. i shall just try my hardest at everything...
am going to church soon.. and the pastor today.. many memories.. bad memories.. good memories are flooding back.. i hope today's sermon will speak to me.. sigh.. we'll see.. adios for another week..
Saturday, February 04, 2006
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interesting.
today was very interesting.
this week has been.. testing at times.. quite sad at times.. damn good at times.. i think im growing. i hope i am. and i can actually reach that level where.. all these doubts just no longer destabilize me.. and i can actually be.. like.. really ding ding ding....
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
im writing now.. just to keep up signs that i am indeed alive..
but.. i realize i really have nothing to say. i dont want to talk about things here.. coz i just think.. i shouldnt. and i just dont like it. thanks hazel if u're reading this.. for talking.. if not i might just kill myself with all these many million thoughts..
there's so much to say.. but yet nothing to say at all.. i dont even know what im doing man.. all the annoyance, anger, and yet joy and hope.. i dont give a shit what the life over there seems, coz things are very different for me.. here.
sigh. i just really have nothing to say anymore.
but.. i realize i really have nothing to say. i dont want to talk about things here.. coz i just think.. i shouldnt. and i just dont like it. thanks hazel if u're reading this.. for talking.. if not i might just kill myself with all these many million thoughts..
there's so much to say.. but yet nothing to say at all.. i dont even know what im doing man.. all the annoyance, anger, and yet joy and hope.. i dont give a shit what the life over there seems, coz things are very different for me.. here.
sigh. i just really have nothing to say anymore.
Sunday, January 22, 2006
line just told me that confidence doesnt come from proving anything to urself.. but trusting that the Lord has plans for you.. and just.. trusting. i want to write that here coz i dont ever wanna forget that
shit to do:
1) notice
2) jour
3) pack + time
4) go church. yes this also must remember.
5) uni
6) adrian the irritant
7) T
sigh.
shit to do:
1) notice
2) jour
3) pack + time
4) go church. yes this also must remember.
5) uni
6) adrian the irritant
7) T
sigh.
Saturday, January 21, 2006
so.. wow. i have so many thoughts. but i cant write them down.. coz there're things that just cannot be said.. in so many ways.. and i dont like to comment in such a well.. public area.. so there.
fear. fear sucks.
but im damn grateful.
acceptance and understanding is the real challenge.
O me! O life! of the questions of these recurring.
Of the endless trains of the faithless, of cities fill'd with the foolish.
Of myself forever reproaching myself, (for who more foolish than I, and who more faithless?)
Of eyes that vainly crave the light, of the objects mean, of the struggle ever renew'd.
Of the poor results of all, of the plodding and sordid crowds I see around me,
Of the empty and useless years of the rest, with the rest me intertwined,
The question, O me! so sad, recurring -- What good amid these, O me, O life?
Answer That you are here--that life exists and identity,
That the powerful play goes on, and you may contribute a verse.
walt whitman
in regards to my last post on jan 2.. i would say things have changed. it's not that i feel differently but i've just realised some things.. and.. there's no point thinking so negatively about things and complaining about shit. coz at the end of the day.. when u sign up for something.. u should be ready for all the negatives and shit and accept it as the whole part of the 'package'. and i guess what doesnt break u.. will make u stronger. very lame. but true.
fear. fear sucks.
but im damn grateful.
acceptance and understanding is the real challenge.
O me! O life! of the questions of these recurring.
Of the endless trains of the faithless, of cities fill'd with the foolish.
Of myself forever reproaching myself, (for who more foolish than I, and who more faithless?)
Of eyes that vainly crave the light, of the objects mean, of the struggle ever renew'd.
Of the poor results of all, of the plodding and sordid crowds I see around me,
Of the empty and useless years of the rest, with the rest me intertwined,
The question, O me! so sad, recurring -- What good amid these, O me, O life?
Answer That you are here--that life exists and identity,
That the powerful play goes on, and you may contribute a verse.
walt whitman
in regards to my last post on jan 2.. i would say things have changed. it's not that i feel differently but i've just realised some things.. and.. there's no point thinking so negatively about things and complaining about shit. coz at the end of the day.. when u sign up for something.. u should be ready for all the negatives and shit and accept it as the whole part of the 'package'. and i guess what doesnt break u.. will make u stronger. very lame. but true.
Monday, January 02, 2006
ok. i actually had a lot of things to say and wanted to type some super long thing.. but i have no time at all.. still gotta pack and finish my stupid apps. and dont even have any time really to _____________________________. fill in the blanks coz i dont even know what they are. i cant even think now. my brains are fried and have sublimed or something. argh i dont care!
anyways one thing i wanted to say is.. the thing now. im most well.. which is bothering me the most. is the definite gender discrimination. my brother said it definitely exists, and guys see the girls as just being quite loserish. in a way i get where he's coming from coz i can be quite sexist sometimes. against my own sex. yes im a bit of an idiot. but im more of a reel life sexist, not a real life sexist. but i am NOT. for example, when there are shows on tv like some stupid reality things i always always support the guy and when the girl wins i get very grrrrr.. coz after they're all like we are female! we must unite against the men! and in my mind, im thinking, please, know ur place.
i know i am such an idiot! o my goodness. but that's because that is just damn idiotic. i wrote a gp essay once on eh.. feminism o yea are women their greatest enemy to achieving equality or something like that. i think it was for promos. and in this case yea. i think it's just all the females unite and girl power thing that pisses me off. but then again guys can be damn arrogant shits too. i dont care if im offending anyone coz IT'S all true, with an equal amount of insults thrown at both sides. so anyway i dont want to be treated like a fool and seen like a joke when im like dying or something but my bro said just get used to it, so ok i will suck it up.
it does piss me off a lot though when guys say girls cannot do this that blah. and shit coz they think they're so united in their testosterone and machoness. but then again girls also say shit like that about guys who are perceived to be much less sensitive and intelligent creatures. i shall not make any personal comments on that.
but i definitely prefer girl friends to guy friends. girl friends are just.. the best really. NOT girlfriends. girl SPACE friends. guys can be friendswith girls. but there's always just something there would prevents them from being close. it's just the gender thing. it's hard to get close coz there's always that bridge. and once u cross it.. there will be trouble. anyway i so digress.
(in ref to the top) SUCH IDIOTS. but i understand. but i dont. and it's still idiotic any way, just like i was. and im pissed argh.
but everyone i know like friends and all i love u i love u i love u!!!!!! well most.. but still FORGIVE ME FOR MY OUTBURST!!!!!!!
you know what. im just gonna go about my own business and do what i have to do. and if i look like a damn idiot or seem like one. that's fine with me. coz i know im more than that. and whatever u think.. UP YOURS man seriously. grrrr.
anyways i promised dee and meixi something.. to take pictures of my hair after i chopchopCHOPED it off a few days ago. so there... whoa my pictures are taking damn long to upload my head must be damn big. full of air man. o my goodness they are still not ready! let me clarify something. i have not become one of those people who aim their cameras at themselves and take shots of their faces at every angle and when they get the perfect shots put them up. no offence to anyone. great for u if that's what u like to do. but it's not what i like to do and i think i better keep the rest of my opinions to myself. this is for dee and meixi and for memory's sake coz i am going to look even shittier.. hahahaaa.. hurray.
o man i seem to have become such a vain shit. but i am not! i just have a terrible OCD, and i must do all angles. just like if i tap on something with my right hand i must do the same number of times with my left and with the same amount of strength or i will always use my fingers to join sticking out polka dot thingies for example those things on like bus faces or walls or whatever and if i miss something i will piss myself off and i must do it again twice in the next round. and shit like that. so yes! ahhhhhhhhhh
sigh. enjoy the rest of the hols man everyone (: take care!
anyways one thing i wanted to say is.. the thing now. im most well.. which is bothering me the most. is the definite gender discrimination. my brother said it definitely exists, and guys see the girls as just being quite loserish. in a way i get where he's coming from coz i can be quite sexist sometimes. against my own sex. yes im a bit of an idiot. but im more of a reel life sexist, not a real life sexist. but i am NOT. for example, when there are shows on tv like some stupid reality things i always always support the guy and when the girl wins i get very grrrrr.. coz after they're all like we are female! we must unite against the men! and in my mind, im thinking, please, know ur place.
i know i am such an idiot! o my goodness. but that's because that is just damn idiotic. i wrote a gp essay once on eh.. feminism o yea are women their greatest enemy to achieving equality or something like that. i think it was for promos. and in this case yea. i think it's just all the females unite and girl power thing that pisses me off. but then again guys can be damn arrogant shits too. i dont care if im offending anyone coz IT'S all true, with an equal amount of insults thrown at both sides. so anyway i dont want to be treated like a fool and seen like a joke when im like dying or something but my bro said just get used to it, so ok i will suck it up.
it does piss me off a lot though when guys say girls cannot do this that blah. and shit coz they think they're so united in their testosterone and machoness. but then again girls also say shit like that about guys who are perceived to be much less sensitive and intelligent creatures. i shall not make any personal comments on that.
but i definitely prefer girl friends to guy friends. girl friends are just.. the best really. NOT girlfriends. girl SPACE friends. guys can be friendswith girls. but there's always just something there would prevents them from being close. it's just the gender thing. it's hard to get close coz there's always that bridge. and once u cross it.. there will be trouble. anyway i so digress.
(in ref to the top) SUCH IDIOTS. but i understand. but i dont. and it's still idiotic any way, just like i was. and im pissed argh.
but everyone i know like friends and all i love u i love u i love u!!!!!! well most.. but still FORGIVE ME FOR MY OUTBURST!!!!!!!
you know what. im just gonna go about my own business and do what i have to do. and if i look like a damn idiot or seem like one. that's fine with me. coz i know im more than that. and whatever u think.. UP YOURS man seriously. grrrr.
anyways i promised dee and meixi something.. to take pictures of my hair after i chopchopCHOPED it off a few days ago. so there... whoa my pictures are taking damn long to upload my head must be damn big. full of air man. o my goodness they are still not ready! let me clarify something. i have not become one of those people who aim their cameras at themselves and take shots of their faces at every angle and when they get the perfect shots put them up. no offence to anyone. great for u if that's what u like to do. but it's not what i like to do and i think i better keep the rest of my opinions to myself. this is for dee and meixi and for memory's sake coz i am going to look even shittier.. hahahaaa.. hurray.
o man i seem to have become such a vain shit. but i am not! i just have a terrible OCD, and i must do all angles. just like if i tap on something with my right hand i must do the same number of times with my left and with the same amount of strength or i will always use my fingers to join sticking out polka dot thingies for example those things on like bus faces or walls or whatever and if i miss something i will piss myself off and i must do it again twice in the next round. and shit like that. so yes! ahhhhhhhhhh
sigh. enjoy the rest of the hols man everyone (: take care!
Sunday, January 01, 2006
i wanted to talk about a lot of things.. but i dont want to anymore.
i think im getting sick. shit man. my throat is damn pain. please pray for me.
shit. of all times. really.
just in a damn crappy mood today. the day has been bad. the week has been bad. i wish i could rewind to the start of this week and make different choices.. maybe even 1 year.. 2 years.. things would have been so DAMN different.
i dont think i can ever leave it behind. it's something which will stick with me forever and never leave. shit man. i really hate saying shit nowadays coz i realise how idiotic i sound but i just cant find any other way to convey.. my anger and annoyance.
:(
i think im getting sick. shit man. my throat is damn pain. please pray for me.
shit. of all times. really.
just in a damn crappy mood today. the day has been bad. the week has been bad. i wish i could rewind to the start of this week and make different choices.. maybe even 1 year.. 2 years.. things would have been so DAMN different.
i dont think i can ever leave it behind. it's something which will stick with me forever and never leave. shit man. i really hate saying shit nowadays coz i realise how idiotic i sound but i just cant find any other way to convey.. my anger and annoyance.
:(
Friday, December 30, 2005
i think everything that i've just wanted to say.. i've said to danielle.. thanks man u b___ shaker, b___twitcher. hahahaa. eh. dont want to paiseh you, so.. u can fill in ur own blanks (: but yea.. that's good coz i dont want to talk about it here. it's just.. not right to me personally. weird huh. but i cant explain it. for me that's just one of the things which i cannot and wont blog about.
so anyway. my mind is empty. actually no it's damn full now. i suddenly thought of the odacers in penang. sigh was kinda looking forward to that but nvm. hope things are good (: mmmm... ok man reminder to self
1) shit writing (i and b)
2) buy buy buy
3) danielle's msg. hahaa
4) 1.2.3t
so anyway. my mind is empty. actually no it's damn full now. i suddenly thought of the odacers in penang. sigh was kinda looking forward to that but nvm. hope things are good (: mmmm... ok man reminder to self
1) shit writing (i and b)
2) buy buy buy
3) danielle's msg. hahaa
4) 1.2.3t
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
ok.. today was.. mmm..
my fear level has risen to new heights.. mmm.. actually ok la.. i just wanna get over all the initial awkwardness and dying..haha and get into the routine of things.. i dunno i just dont feel like i have anything intelligent to say about this..
but... we'll see. i made a list just now before i completely conked out. there's a shitload of things to buy. right now the number stands at 26. sigh. so little time and so much to do. everything u hear seems so surreal now.
let's go man.
anyway. it was really really really great meeting up with the class that day and then going to mr. ho's house. i am sorry my level of intelligence has hit an all time low. but i really respect and like the way he brings up his kids.. they were sooo smart.. and so cute.. haha. i love my class man! really. a lot. you just couldnt ask for a better bunch of people to spend 2 years with going through shit but damn good times with. mmm.. i mean i guess everyone is like going in different directions now.. but i hope.. we wont forget la. (:
my fear level has risen to new heights.. mmm.. actually ok la.. i just wanna get over all the initial awkwardness and dying..haha and get into the routine of things.. i dunno i just dont feel like i have anything intelligent to say about this..
but... we'll see. i made a list just now before i completely conked out. there's a shitload of things to buy. right now the number stands at 26. sigh. so little time and so much to do. everything u hear seems so surreal now.
let's go man.
anyway. it was really really really great meeting up with the class that day and then going to mr. ho's house. i am sorry my level of intelligence has hit an all time low. but i really respect and like the way he brings up his kids.. they were sooo smart.. and so cute.. haha. i love my class man! really. a lot. you just couldnt ask for a better bunch of people to spend 2 years with going through shit but damn good times with. mmm.. i mean i guess everyone is like going in different directions now.. but i hope.. we wont forget la. (:
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
just because i dont talk about certain things.. here.. doesnt mean i dont care.
im _______ i dont meet the _____. im _______ of how ______ ________ me. and i KNOW _ ___ ____ __ but dont think _ __ ___ _______. and everyone seems to be so damn ____ .. like seriously??! it's killing me. but it's a really really good murder.. if u could put it that way.
im _______ i dont meet the _____. im _______ of how ______ ________ me. and i KNOW _ ___ ____ __ but dont think _ __ ___ _______. and everyone seems to be so damn ____ .. like seriously??! it's killing me. but it's a really really good murder.. if u could put it that way.
I HATE LIVERPOOL.
i dont give a shit who supports them. and it's not coz they won us yesterday. i dont give a crap about that either.
it all started out earlier this week when rafael benitez claimed that he had gone all out to get owen but at the end of the day he couldnt get him coz the price we offered was too damn high. BULLSHIT. liverpool hardly even did shit and there was hardly even mention of anything. it was newcastle that went all out for owen. i wrote about that whole period it's somewhere in my archives and please. the amount of work shearer, souness, and freddy shephard put in to get owen to newcastle, not to mention the huge price tag and the reaction of the fans, is way more than anything liverpool had to offer. they didnt even give a shit about owen and we went all out. that's how they do it in the north, with a damn big amount of sincerity, not some bullshitting down at liverpool and then LATER coming out to say, o sure, we would want him back again. HE"S HARDLY BEEN HERE FOR LIKE WHAT A FEW MONTHS AND THEN U"RE SAYING U WANT HIM BACK ALREADY. underhanded idiot.
secondly, the match yesterday. the bowyer incident. firstly, the challenge that he made was probably at the most a yellow carded challenge. alonso of course, who is 1 of the members of the spanish team which makes up 99% of liverpool's squad flewto the ground in pain and rowed over a million times all the way until he was out of the stadium coz he was in so damn much pain. so in came crouch, all gangly, and scary and hovering and pushed bowyer backwards until he fell. and what a PUSH. not a small shove it was really with all force. and then GERRARD that damn ******* decided to poke his stupid nose in too and all THEY WERE THE ONES THAT INSTIGATED THE PANDEMONIUM that ensued. gerrard and crouch deserved a straight red. they started all the fighting and shit. for goodness sake. crouch, no one gives a shit that u're an england international. i think u're SO DAMN OVERRATED, england just needs a talking point and currently u're it, we'll see where u are in 1 year. so it has gotten to ur head that omg im a liverpool men and i can go around pushing guys like bowyer, coz he unlike me has a the reputation of a player with a shit temper and the referee will send him off not me. DAMMIT GET A LIFE!!!!!!!! and you gerrard. shit u're damn overrated too. i've always thought so. u part of the england trio of john terry and frank lampard. the untouchable trio. BULLSHIT. liverpool skipper? bullshit! what an insult the shot of gerrard with shearer. THAT IS A REAL SKIPPER FOR YOU DAMMIT. GERRARD IS SUCH A DAMN FAKE. u'll be gone. i give u slightly longer than crouch. 1 year and 1 day. sigh.
i was talking to my dad this morning and we both agreed on it.. ARROGANCE is the word. they're such a huge team u know. u know u are when u win a champions league in a match you know u dont deserve and then get a run of 8 straight wins in the premiership without letting a goal in. o wait let's make that 8 straight boring wins. that's when u know u've made it. o yea and when u play in the world club cup and have everyone saying o man! liverpool deserved to win the match! but you didnt! that's the sign of true greatness, it really really is. and it all gets to your HEAD. IDIOTS. i've always disliked liverpool coz they are just so damn hateable and are DAMN DAMN BORING. and they still are damn boring. with a liar of a manager and a fake skipper, how could u not be. o yea and when all the players are speaking different languages and cant communicate with each other. suddenly i feel damn bad and feel like i'm being extremely harsh. in a few days i prob will be like a toned down version of this but for now i dont care. the hardest thing for me to do after a newcastle loss is to go to soccernet/nufc.com/nufc.co.uk but i did today coz i wanted to see what souness had to say. and he had no excuses for newcastle's performance which i personally admit was piss poor, and neither did shearer, the only man who ALWAYS gives 100% everytime besides shay given. by the way, shay given is the BEST GOALKEEPER IN THE EPL who gives a shit about peter cech. NOBODY can match up to shay given. he's often overlooked, but who cares. we all know he's the best. i hope we win the fa cup this season. shearer needs... something before he retires and we need to keep given and of course i need to go crazy. that's the kind of team newcastle is we accept defeat with no excuses. no we do not lie like rafa or pretend to get all worked up over nothing like gerrard. we accept blame where blame is due.
if u like liverpool go ahead and bullshit me.. coz you know what... I DONT CAREEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dammit. i really hate gerrard.
i dont give a shit who supports them. and it's not coz they won us yesterday. i dont give a crap about that either.
it all started out earlier this week when rafael benitez claimed that he had gone all out to get owen but at the end of the day he couldnt get him coz the price we offered was too damn high. BULLSHIT. liverpool hardly even did shit and there was hardly even mention of anything. it was newcastle that went all out for owen. i wrote about that whole period it's somewhere in my archives and please. the amount of work shearer, souness, and freddy shephard put in to get owen to newcastle, not to mention the huge price tag and the reaction of the fans, is way more than anything liverpool had to offer. they didnt even give a shit about owen and we went all out. that's how they do it in the north, with a damn big amount of sincerity, not some bullshitting down at liverpool and then LATER coming out to say, o sure, we would want him back again. HE"S HARDLY BEEN HERE FOR LIKE WHAT A FEW MONTHS AND THEN U"RE SAYING U WANT HIM BACK ALREADY. underhanded idiot.
secondly, the match yesterday. the bowyer incident. firstly, the challenge that he made was probably at the most a yellow carded challenge. alonso of course, who is 1 of the members of the spanish team which makes up 99% of liverpool's squad flewto the ground in pain and rowed over a million times all the way until he was out of the stadium coz he was in so damn much pain. so in came crouch, all gangly, and scary and hovering and pushed bowyer backwards until he fell. and what a PUSH. not a small shove it was really with all force. and then GERRARD that damn ******* decided to poke his stupid nose in too and all THEY WERE THE ONES THAT INSTIGATED THE PANDEMONIUM that ensued. gerrard and crouch deserved a straight red. they started all the fighting and shit. for goodness sake. crouch, no one gives a shit that u're an england international. i think u're SO DAMN OVERRATED, england just needs a talking point and currently u're it, we'll see where u are in 1 year. so it has gotten to ur head that omg im a liverpool men and i can go around pushing guys like bowyer, coz he unlike me has a the reputation of a player with a shit temper and the referee will send him off not me. DAMMIT GET A LIFE!!!!!!!! and you gerrard. shit u're damn overrated too. i've always thought so. u part of the england trio of john terry and frank lampard. the untouchable trio. BULLSHIT. liverpool skipper? bullshit! what an insult the shot of gerrard with shearer. THAT IS A REAL SKIPPER FOR YOU DAMMIT. GERRARD IS SUCH A DAMN FAKE. u'll be gone. i give u slightly longer than crouch. 1 year and 1 day. sigh.
i was talking to my dad this morning and we both agreed on it.. ARROGANCE is the word. they're such a huge team u know. u know u are when u win a champions league in a match you know u dont deserve and then get a run of 8 straight wins in the premiership without letting a goal in. o wait let's make that 8 straight boring wins. that's when u know u've made it. o yea and when u play in the world club cup and have everyone saying o man! liverpool deserved to win the match! but you didnt! that's the sign of true greatness, it really really is. and it all gets to your HEAD. IDIOTS. i've always disliked liverpool coz they are just so damn hateable and are DAMN DAMN BORING. and they still are damn boring. with a liar of a manager and a fake skipper, how could u not be. o yea and when all the players are speaking different languages and cant communicate with each other. suddenly i feel damn bad and feel like i'm being extremely harsh. in a few days i prob will be like a toned down version of this but for now i dont care. the hardest thing for me to do after a newcastle loss is to go to soccernet/nufc.com/nufc.co.uk but i did today coz i wanted to see what souness had to say. and he had no excuses for newcastle's performance which i personally admit was piss poor, and neither did shearer, the only man who ALWAYS gives 100% everytime besides shay given. by the way, shay given is the BEST GOALKEEPER IN THE EPL who gives a shit about peter cech. NOBODY can match up to shay given. he's often overlooked, but who cares. we all know he's the best. i hope we win the fa cup this season. shearer needs... something before he retires and we need to keep given and of course i need to go crazy. that's the kind of team newcastle is we accept defeat with no excuses. no we do not lie like rafa or pretend to get all worked up over nothing like gerrard. we accept blame where blame is due.
if u like liverpool go ahead and bullshit me.. coz you know what... I DONT CAREEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dammit. i really hate gerrard.
Monday, December 26, 2005
i changed my mind. im not gonna change my add just yet. to that. it'll remain the same for now..
i think people have a tendency.. that you know.. it is never enough to know yourself that maybe.. u have achieved something.. or u've done damn good in something.. or u are something which u think is 'great' or whatever.. or it's never enough to know that you are as you think.. great. in whatever way it is. and it's never enough to just asknowledge something.. or take it into ur stride.. without in subtle manners letting people know or getting some sympathy respectively. and it's really in subtle ways. but everyone really knows what's going on, but no one says anything. coz that's just how everything works.
they may put it across like a casual comment.. or a subtle comment in the middle of no where.. or in a rather dramatic fashion.. and the real irony is that by doing so.. u're just completely selling out you know.. you're not what you think u are.. but i guess that's just a human thing maybe. although some do it more than others. man.. will always have a need to seek the approval of others, even though no one will speak about it.
it really damn pisses u off sometimes. but if it does.. i guess at the end of the day u end up being the idiot. why the heck are u gettin pissed at something which doesnt even deserve recognition at all. let's just spend that energy elsewhere on things that really do actually matter.
i think people have a tendency.. that you know.. it is never enough to know yourself that maybe.. u have achieved something.. or u've done damn good in something.. or u are something which u think is 'great' or whatever.. or it's never enough to know that you are as you think.. great. in whatever way it is. and it's never enough to just asknowledge something.. or take it into ur stride.. without in subtle manners letting people know or getting some sympathy respectively. and it's really in subtle ways. but everyone really knows what's going on, but no one says anything. coz that's just how everything works.
they may put it across like a casual comment.. or a subtle comment in the middle of no where.. or in a rather dramatic fashion.. and the real irony is that by doing so.. u're just completely selling out you know.. you're not what you think u are.. but i guess that's just a human thing maybe. although some do it more than others. man.. will always have a need to seek the approval of others, even though no one will speak about it.
it really damn pisses u off sometimes. but if it does.. i guess at the end of the day u end up being the idiot. why the heck are u gettin pissed at something which doesnt even deserve recognition at all. let's just spend that energy elsewhere on things that really do actually matter.
Sunday, December 25, 2005
ballistic. shit everything. and everyone. and everything. then cards. then sigh. dunno man.
if u're reading this and am interested and want to read more/***/whatever, i am changing my blog add to idontgiveashitaboutsoundingdeep.blogspot.com
affirmative? fantastic. if u have linked me please change ur links. if not i will contact u.. like. never. mm. i'll change it soon so whoever cares can read this first.. yea thanks man. WHY DO I KEEP SAYING THANK YOU AND SORRY!!!
but yea sorry. thanks.
*** i actually put know me. what the heck was i typing!! that's just disgusting. know me through my blog. that's just disgusting. i think the way i write and everything.. if u didnt know me u would prob think im arrogant or something. but it's not true.. im very.. very different from that.. so.. why the heck am i even explaining myself!!!! arghhhhhhhhh BAHHHHHHH. bah black sheep have u any wool.
sheep: no i dont. but i have shit. a lot in fact
hurray!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yea man. i definitely dont sound deep. that's fantastic.
one more thing. if u wanna like say something or know something.. have the balls to speak directly. u know what im saying? dont go behind and ask. dont do things on the down low. upfront. truth and honesty. that to me is so damn important. and it really makes me freaking annoyed when things are otherwise. stay out.
if u're reading this and am interested and want to read more/***/whatever, i am changing my blog add to idontgiveashitaboutsoundingdeep.blogspot.com
affirmative? fantastic. if u have linked me please change ur links. if not i will contact u.. like. never. mm. i'll change it soon so whoever cares can read this first.. yea thanks man. WHY DO I KEEP SAYING THANK YOU AND SORRY!!!
but yea sorry. thanks.
*** i actually put know me. what the heck was i typing!! that's just disgusting. know me through my blog. that's just disgusting. i think the way i write and everything.. if u didnt know me u would prob think im arrogant or something. but it's not true.. im very.. very different from that.. so.. why the heck am i even explaining myself!!!! arghhhhhhhhh BAHHHHHHH. bah black sheep have u any wool.
sheep: no i dont. but i have shit. a lot in fact
hurray!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yea man. i definitely dont sound deep. that's fantastic.
one more thing. if u wanna like say something or know something.. have the balls to speak directly. u know what im saying? dont go behind and ask. dont do things on the down low. upfront. truth and honesty. that to me is so damn important. and it really makes me freaking annoyed when things are otherwise. stay out.
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