im writing now.. just to keep up signs that i am indeed alive..

but.. i realize i really have nothing to say. i dont want to talk about things here.. coz i just think.. i shouldnt. and i just dont like it. thanks hazel if u're reading this.. for talking.. if not i might just kill myself with all these many million thoughts..

there's so much to say.. but yet nothing to say at all.. i dont even know what im doing man.. all the annoyance, anger, and yet joy and hope.. i dont give a shit what the life over there seems, coz things are very different for me.. here.

sigh. i just really have nothing to say anymore.