Tuesday, September 04, 2007

T square.

im watching an american pbs frontline documentary on the tiananmen square incident.
which of course produced the famous picture of that one chinese guy apparently standing in defiance in front of the tanks.















and all i can think is...
you know people kinda tend to believe what they hear...
that's how propaganda works.
and often from such a one-sided point of view.
but the world is so damn retarded and human beings stupid as hell
that it often isn that way.
im not saying that nothing happened and it's all bullshit
coz it's a clear violation of human rights..
but i just dont really kinda favour the approach given to it... or any other thing for that matter.

so im hearing in this documentary... well... it is american.
things like... he must have been thinking... he must have said this...
and... i dont know man...
have become extremely cynical and er... unbelieving in the things people say (or so i say now. bet im still naive as crap). there's such a thin line drawn between fact and personal opinion... YES. that's it. it's human nature to put things across how you want it to be... no matter how much u pride urself on being objective.

crap i dont know how to put my thoughts across.
GAH.
actually. i think the best selfish thing to do is
not give a shit. not give a shit and ur world will be a better place.
or maybe... give a shit when u can do something about it.
but those are 2 screwed up responses too...
to give a shit or not!!!!
i think yes... but maybe under the control of emotions and without thinking bout crap like this day and night.
okok we must.

just looked at my schedule for the semester ahead
it's crazy. crazy crazy. very disgusting indeed. i really need to study abroad.
ahhh.
screwed man.

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DAMMIT THE CHAIR I'VE BEEN WANTING TO BUY FOR 2 WEEKS BUT HAVENT DUE TO PROCRASTINATION HAS INCREASED BY FREAKING 20 USD!!!!!!!!!
)!@(&(!*@$)!@#*_!
i think i'll just lie on my floor and study/use my laptop for the rest of my time overseas.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH
DUN PROCRASTINATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wah lao. im damn... cik kek man.
u know that singaporean expression.
but i just dont know how to type it out.
like dialect for damn annoyed or something.

sometimes i think i really should cut back on all my singaporean slangs...
too many wah laos and stuff.
and maybe cut back on more... eh.. for lack of a better word. unlady like terms like screwed and shit and hell and things like that... which i try to replace with crap when im typing. but actually... im thinking of something else.
coz it makes everything sound so... bad.

but i cant! coz the expression is just different.
all right. unladylike it shall be.
dont think anyone expects the opposite anyway.

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