it's 403 now.. and i just cant and dont feel like sleeping... which i need to coz..

(1) i need to get up early to ...
(2) i have too toooo many things to do tmr to feel tired.. sigh..

and so i ended up here... and.. there are some things i feel like feeling.. haa...

i feel that.. humans are always just.. gonna disappoint u.. no matter what.. and it's those few that dont.. that you know are your.. well.. 'soul mates' kinda.. in not such a serious use of the word...

i feel like.. i can never ever show outwardly concern towards anyone.. coz i am just such an awkward person.. and hardhearted.. not in the sense i dont care.. coz i know that im a big fat marshmallow.. and i care about a lot of things more than my buay song face will betray.. but.. i just know that.. yea.. some things are unneeded.. i mean.. yea. i dont know how to express myself on this one.

sigh. ok. that's all. one more thing i came online and the first thing i saw was steve irwin killed by a stingray. o my goodness.. so so so so shocking really.. i actually let out an audible gasp... which i never do.. i cant believe it he was too young.. too capable.. too talented.. it's a sad day in aus indeed..

my room mate just came back.. time to sleep.. goodnight