i finally decided to post.. coz it's 520 am in the morning and i have 'time'...

anyways.. i dont wanna say too much just wanna say a few things.. i dunno who still comes here. and things like that.. but thank u really.. to everyone who.. means something to me.. which most prob must mean u.. unless u are ________ ... or ________ or _________... yea that should be it.. actually on second thought... _________ too...

nah just kidding. but actually like.. 1%.. not really...

but anyways.. i always feel like things are impossible to describe.. unless u're experiencing it urself.. and as much as we are interested in each other's life.. we are not exatly interested in all the complete blow by blow accounts.. so i am not gonna bullshit so much here.. but just.. im slowly adjusting to things here.. i wont say it's omg this place is freaking amazing.. or it sucks like hell get me out of this hellhole.. but it's just a new reality that i prob need to get used to.. and... i want to make the best out of this reality.. which will take time.. but i will get there.

so other than that.. i am still alive. and no massive ground breaking news has happened yet other than i tested positive for TB. yes u heard me right. i have freaking tb germs in my body. i dont know why. but apparently it's quite common. i dont have the disease ok. just carrying a nice erm.. what's that word.. that u use on inactive volcanos.. ok it's 525 and im not really thinking so i[l just say inactive germs.. and they'll stay that way with some medicine here. seriously it's no big deal. i was just talking about life and death so i touched on that.

anyways to the people i care about.. i still do. a lot. thank you.. for sending me off.. for yue-ing me out.. for the conversations.. for the concern.. for the effort.. really just thanks for ur friendship man. i am not one of those idiots who has become so damn like.. encapsulated in my own world and thrown the world of yesterday behind.. i dont know whetherh people will become like that.. but.. i dunno.. i accept this as my reality now.. but this reality includes everything that i have back home. i wont let myself be completely absorbed by my own stupid life man.

anyways everyone i know i love... take care man! i am thinking of u... we'll meet very soon (:(:(:(: