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was looking at some photos just now...
kinda realised how damn shitty people become as we age and how much crappier the world is despite any illusions about the how we have matured with wisdom and emotional intelligence and whatever other delusions we might have.
it's just freaking disgusting.
all worries and concerns now are just so full of it.
things which made me sick.. make me even sicker.

it's not holding onto the past and refusing to let go...
it's more... going back and kinda just embracing that 'goodness' again.
suddenly everything that seemed to matter recently.. can just take a backseat.
you realise you cant just settle for the next best thing. just because.
there's gotta be something more than that.

i swear my sis was the cutest kid ever.
so.. hm. what happened huh.
and. wow.
how my bro's 'love and affection' for his siblings has changed