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what an adrenaline rush.

had an exam tonight and a paper to hand in at 6pm for my night class. 2 papers of a 1000 words. which really isnt a lot. but i really really hate starting.. started at 2 am last night, finished at 5 for one. started the other at 7 and finished at 11. edited them so, so many times. i hate the initial phase, where you have no idea what you're gonna put down coz you know zilch.. but as you start.. and kinda get into the flow of things.. not bad. i think one of the happiest moment in my university life of studying.. is always when the paper comes out of the printing machine.. all that work.. turned into nice neat double-spaced lines with times new roman standard font size 12.. with my name right at the top. seriously. it is a feeling of exhilaration. makes me feel damn. damn. accomplished.

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i start daydreaming sometimes during lessons.. because im thinking of whether or not i should go for my next class.. but i am proud to say though.. that this has really not been an issue for me at all since.. some parts of the start of this sem.. sure it still is for some reasons.. but whatever it is.. i go. and went i did today. only the teacher forgot to come. the students started a mini-revolution in the class using as much english as they wanted.. because we cant in language class.. 2 left after 5 mins. the rest of us sat around for a while.. 10 min. some guy just said "lets get the f out of here". and the room was emptied in 10 seconds. niceee. decisive.

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my pol sci class in international relations is great.. if anyone has time i recommend you find this documentary called "why we fight". it's about american militarism today. im trying very hard to look at things from a neutral unbiased perspective.. and when i find myself leaning towards the side filled with anger at bush and america's attempt at imperialism i wonder if i am being slightly brainwashed because of my classes... but i dont think so. coming here.. ive realised how ignorant my statements about things regarding american policies and leaders were in the past. quite ironical isnt it. but that documentary is really good. if i can get my hands on it. shall force people to watch it with me in sg.

there was a talk on iran that day. and something very interesting came up. the professor, who's iranian (very gentle, mild-mannered guy.. although he looked a little like borat. but very mesmerizing eyes. really.), was talking about the US role in iran's history. as everyone knows the big issue over iran now is about their nuclear weapons.. the US is thinking of starting an air/sea war with them.. yadayada.. this guy came in and brought another perspective to it, and i can honestly say i feel very sorry for the people. and many people in the middleeast. the ordinary civilians who just want to get on with their lives and live it undisturbed. not talking about some shits like osama. one very interesting thing he pointed out... during the iraq-iran war of 1980 - 1988, the US was on the side of the iraqis. o yea and before that they had supported the decision to invade iran to capture its oil fields. but that is not the point here. so anyways the US then were really good friends with saddam hussein and they were the ones who provided him with the weapons of mass destruction for the war with iran. the huge irony is that years down the road, when situations change and backs are turned, saddam hussein has become the devil. and the WMD that they're looking for in iraq, actually came right from their hands.

and now they're thinking of bombing iran etc. you know... if you are trying to lead a normal, peaceful life. but yet someone keeps wanting to take over your business, decide who is going to be made ruler, take your oil-fields.. creating nuclear weapons to protect yourself. in a way. isnt that out of a world concept. if you get what im saying.

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there's this day at my university called the unoff-c-al st patr-cks day (trying to prevent myself being googled), the - represents i. got the following off a website:

For those of you who don't have the privilege of attending the University of Illinois, I'll give you one more thing to be jealous of besides our engineering school, business school, vet med school, agriculture school, law school, athletic dominance (except for football for the past few years), greek system, and party atmosphere. It was a tradition that was started years ago when St. Patrick's Day fell in the middle of spring break and the bars didn’t want to miss out on the revenue so they decided to celebrate the holiday a few weeks early. Now every year on the Friday of Unofficial everyone on campus (unless you have an exam that day) wakes up at around 7 or 8 AM and begins the drinking marathon that is Unofficial. Many teachers cancel lectures or don't go over anything important since they know that at least 50% of their students are drunk. Of course all of the bars open at around 8 that morning, some even serving green pancakes for breakfast, but the most interesting thing about this day however is that the Police must be out in strong force, arresting drunks, early in the morning.
- thanks to this guy.

and we got mass emails too about how security etc at the dorms are going to increase... a friend told me that last year a korean grad student was on a motorbike with someone, they were both drunk and got killed in an accident. we'll see how things go this friday.

my friend just told me that everyone just goes crazy.. there're already many classes cancelled.. and esp if you have a big lecture.. coz my school has a crapload of fraternities.. so they always take this chance to do stupid stuff.. like she had an exam and suddenly 6 guys ran in stripped and ran around the auditorium and out... profs cant do anything.. hmm.