i really.. feel like.. my future is screwed..

i guess eventually i have to pay the price.. like.. i've always been damn heck care and somehow breezed through some things.. prob thanks to God more than anything else.. and.. yea..

i really. dont know what my next step is going to be. coz for prob for a real first time ever.. i dont see anything 'special' that can lie ahead.

sigh.