so... im back up! why.. i decided to start doing this again.. i shall write about it later.. right now there's just no mood to do anything.. coz of

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and of course the bloody exams. no. i am not taking a stupid one sided view. i have my reasons and i will talk about this shit another time. no disrespect to lovers of maths or mathematicians out there.. but maths is really BULLSHIT. biggest BULLSHIT ever. seriously. SHIT. freaking s paper can go and screw itself. at least i'll be entertained during the 3 freaking boring hours. BULLSHIT. sigh.

i feel like i went against my morals taking this SHIT. but i was just trying to be realistic coz just needed it for something.. and i thought i would change. like grow 10 000 tones of brain tissue. or actually sit down and bother to do something. but i realised everyday that u sit there.. thinking that u're going to change.. it's such a lie man.. it's such a lie...

FREAK IT FEELS DAMN GOOD TO WRITE AGAIN. sigh. ok.