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shit.

lone cherry

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh........
the 'sweet' taste of the R
which actually never had any possibility of existing

why is it that what actually comes knocking..
is just freaking weird.
why.

i need to learn to keep my emotions and pride in check
when people dont take me seriously.

heartbreaking.

haa.
the cruelty of it all...
heartbreakingly so...

sigh.
maybe it's... just been so long.

hahaa.
what a fantasy.
a lesson in the dangers of idealism
and how everything is not meant to be ever.
:(

50 cents was all it took.

thank God for the invention of dispensers.
red alert.
saved the day man.
they are my new favourite machines.

why's it still on my mind?
but i dont dare to do anything about it... no way.
am getting a small whiff of the torture.
i wonder if it's possible for 2 completely different entities... to merge.

i guess keeping those links are way more important than any more neurotic concerns.
right?

i knew i was right somewhere in there...
it's just such a damn shitty situation and mindset that cant be reversed...
which i need to just pull away and separate myself from.

seahorse

at the end of the day...
i really love what i do.
this reaffirmation has been rejuvenating...

they still exist.
but it doesn matter.
superficial things can be worked on.
right.

we're getting there slowly

help

am trying to remove myself from search engines...
bao en the code thing doesnt work.
have edited posts and taken my name away...
but crap. still doesnt work.
help? someone?
if not im prob gonna re-do this.

KB

i wonder how many ------- one can take
there has to be a limit right
am on a damn good path to finding out the answer to this sickening question.

but the bigger one is why do i even give so much of a shit?
is it an internal or external factor
shit

i understand her transformation now
it seems almost inevitable
am kinda heading down the same path...
minus that particular vice

blah

im gonna be staying in camp... so just call/msg me if anything. anything. got a new cameraless phone which is working perfectly... i swear i will reply.

so.. contact me that way. thanks.