since im sitting here waiting stupidly for something.. very stupidly.. but.. yea.. instead of doing something else which i really should be doing..or should have done a few weeks ago.. i shall just update my blog.. there's a lot of SHIT i've been wanting to say.. but i just cant be bothered to type it all down coz everything always comes out wrong and i've just been so damn busy. so i am gonna summarize my brain and type everything down and piss off the whole world and myself and then not give a shit. hurray.
1) singaporeans are a bunch of damn idiots. my sister fainted at the bus stop today and my mum was shaking her in panic.. (i wasnt around.. was having.. an interesting joyride..) and the bunch of 7 idiots at the bus stop stood still in their positions with a mere tilt of their heads towards my sister. honestly i dont feel pissed instead i find it so hilarious. freaking hilarious that it's so damn disgusting. and this lame excuse of a man actually stood BEHIND my mum to queue up to get into the bus. seriously. SERIOUSLY man. get a brain. or at least some eyes if that's possible. hey man singaporeans! can we stop being a bunch of retards!
2) which brings me to point number 2. no that last sentence was a stupid generalisation. all the shit i've said about singaporeans.. everything i've cursed about singapore.. it's not that i've changed all my views but it's damn childish to think that everyone is the same and ur country sucks. coz seriously. we're damn lucky that we were born here and not some other havoc place. and everyone is different. just so happens that every once in a while, a bunch of idiots choose to aggregate in a bus stop. it's not coz of the army which has made me more.. patriotic.. or less narrow minded towards singapore. i'd already been transforming my views.. and even more so now. i still see the good and the bad. but there are assholes every where u go and everywhere has it's own set of problems. the grass prob always seems greener on the other side.. but when u step over.. u start to see the shit between the blades.. and u know u're stepping into somewhere where u dont belong..
3) please! do NOT be a know it all in front of me. coz i cant tahan know it alls. coz NOBODY knows it all. i am not going to go into too long a rant, coz this is a topic as old as the hills and has pissed me off for as long as i can remember. just when u think a lesson is learnt.. bullshit. it isnt. and it's not disappointment coz i cant even care at all. it's just a huge load of annoyance. trust me. i know more on this one. so dont come give me some lecture and sound so damn indignant. it's the stupid ego thing. just STOP all that arrogance. it's bullshit you know. people always use that reverse psycho thing. they openly tell people that they're insecure but inside they're proud of the fact that they are in a weird sense. i cant really explain it. this front that people put up gives them a crap load of pride and at the end of the day if you lack the humility to break through that and be honest with urself.. u can NEVER.. never be to be put it lamely. a good human being. of coz that is only my opinion.. and of course.. even though i sound like such an idiot here.. i can put this across in a much nicer manner.. just that thinking of some things have made me get mad all over again. so i may be wrong i may be right. i dont care. am not asking anyone to agree or read this. so if u dont wanna read this.. GO AWAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
4) four. what is there more to say. yes. i am very confused. and then i go for something. and then im sure. and then i get confused again. this point. about the saf. i am not gonna elaborate. because why. because when u do speak about it certain people dont get a crap but they pretend they get a crap and actually try to educate u that they have much idea of crap than u know but that's bullshit. and for me this matter is very personal. i will speak to it maybe to my close female friends. but also not much coz talkign about this the entire time is just so damn isolating. so these thoughts i shall keep to myself and keep my highs and lows and my confusions and torture myself inwardly. hurray that is so damn fun.
sigh. why do i sound so angry everytime i type! i am actually quite a gentle.. ok scrap that word. u cant associate that with me. i am actually a very ___ person. really. too much in fact. and it's not that i try to be that way. it's just a personality trait. which is a negative thing sometimes. but that never does come across.. esp here i guess.. coz i type when im either frustrated/angry/sad. so.. sigh. whatever. i dont care.
